Mares, I was hoping you would all be together by now - hope it happens soon. Meanwhile enjoy being pg...
Faith baklava - yum!!!
me 40, DH 40, one (TTC since November 2012) At least one confirmed chem.Ivf #1 march 2014 - 6 day 6 blasts, bfn, 4 frosties. Ivf #2 may, cancelled, Ivf #3 July two transferred, 3 frosties... BFP! Scan at 6+4 wks - twins!! Feeling more blessed than words!
Congrats to the preggies!!
Hugs for the losses.
Fingers crossed for all the new appointments and exciting starts.
Thinking of you all and reading along. Waiting to see the happy end of your journeys.
Happy Holidays and Merry Christmas!!
Me - 40 - mthfr c677t and multiple unknown caused m/c's
DH - 41 - old and cranky
DS - 6 - ASD and severe adhd
Waiting for my dye test lol
Merry Christmas and happy babies to all
Chuord- I'm so glad your dye test went well. Great result :-)
I'm on my second day of clomid and going to the hospital for follicle tracking. I'm so relieved to be monitored this month.
Hope everyone is well and enjoying the run up to Christmas.
Oxford - I'm impressed with how early they start tracking you! Grow follies, grow!
AFM - OB appt in two hours. Exciting!
Oxford - I agree it sounds like you are being well looked after - that takes a load of stress off! Let us know how it goes
Mamablue - woohooo!!! I'm soo happy for you that it's going so well I'm sure you are still a little apprehensive about the materniti21 test, here's to the expected clear results and getting them faster!
Afm - I did get a little crampy within 6 hours afterwards, but found if I didn't walk a lot it was fine (with my heat pack) I really think it was that tiny bit of dye leakage that made me feel weird, and possibly some detox from the antioxidant flush.
Quick question please, my temps have been all over the place and I keep having hot flushes - could the letrozole be doing that? Normally my temps are constant during first phase... I'm starting opk's from cd10, as I'm not monitored and have no idea what letrozole will do to o day timing...
I'm being monitored to check how my body reacts to the drugs. Sometimes it can work too effectively and kick out a load of eggs with a risk of multiples and conversely it can fail to stimulate and I need a higher dose. Yesterday was a baseline scan to check out my ovaries. Apparently I have a small cyst on my right one, but it shouldn't be a problem. No side effects so far, all good. Should be finishing AF tomorrow so DH will be getting some Christmas treats for the next week, bless him!!
Mamablue- great news on your scan. Yay!!!! You must be delighted. I hope you can relax a bit now and enjoy. Just think, next Christmas you will have a babe in arms :-)
Chuord- glad the drugs are working and you are going for it! Hot flushes sound annoying. I guess you don't live I. A climate cold enough for that to be useful!! My drugs have raised my temp all the time. I think that's because it's an anti estrogen and estrogen lowers your temp, don't know whether that's true but seems logical. As we are in winter here, DH is livingy increased temp and is snuggling at night to keep warm!!! At least I am useful for something :-)
What date is your IVF in the new year (hopes you will have your BFP in this medicated cycle)
Ok- international sharing- what do you do on Christmas Day??
I love they thought of mama blue and the others with a babe in arms... Here's to it being all of us!
Christmas - my family is from the UK (Durham area) my husband is Taiwanese so he's not fussed except him and my sister love the Aussie seafood Christmas... So last night (Christmas eve) we had roast turkey and roast pork - roast veg, steamed veg, gravy and Yorkshire puddings - soo yum! There's homemade; Chrissy cake, pâté, terrine normally mince pies... Plus loads of cherries (7kg) today (Christmas) we are having cold roast, several salads, fried last nights veg, dh is making sausage rolls, and a prawn feast... Mums making a pavlova and a Black Forest trifle... Oh and Ive been forbidden from getting up too early, you are without children someone has to keep the early morning Christmas alive I see that as my roll! Oh and we made out own crackers... Christmas to us is about getting as much of the family together as we can and we use the food to celebrate that. There's only 5 of us in Australia, plus significant others now - so we are a tight nit bunch.
Merry Christmas and baby dust, and more importantly peace and healing to us all wherever our journey is at... 😊
Happy Christmas, I hope you are having a lovely day with your families and those you love.
I want to use this as a place to off load as I can't do it in the real world, not today. I'm so sad. Christmas is all about children and I don't have any. I am so desperate to get pregnant and have a baby if my own, today seems to bring it into focus and highlight the yawning gap in my life. To make it worse, I have my teenage stepdaughter with us this morning. She has come over to get her presents - a new iPhone 5. Now he has it, she has retreated into teenage monosyllabic. My DH is trying to make the most of being her dad and being as close to her as she will allow him. It makes me feel even more isolated.
I'm sorry for the blue Christmas message. I have been positive for the last two months and it has all caught up with me today. I have gone to church to get away from sd and have a cry in peace. I can't tell DH as I don't want to detract from his dad time.
TTC is a cruel experience and being a step mother makes it worse.
My sincere hope is that you are all having a joyful day. Best wishes to you and yours. I will be back with a more positive approach later. Thank you for letting me offload. Honestly sometimes I think I would go completely bonkers without you lot!! Thank you :-)
Oxford - also remember to be gentle with yourself, on top of the need to release you are on hormone changing meds. I was literally crying for no reason on letrozole. Really hear what mamablue said and be gentle and nurture yourself - huge hugs to you! I sorta get it, we had pics sent of my brothers girlfriends 3 children all day yesterday - although they're sweet, it's a constant reminder to me that my parents have to 'borrow' grandchildren.
And what Mamablue said is so kind and very true....very well said.
I have been off the grid for a while trying to recuperate. It has been tough but also the past few days have been good because all of the pregnancy symptoms are gone so I was able to cook Christmas Eve dinner and wrap presents, stuff stockings, etc. I still have pits of sadness though and find myself crying when no one is around. That's the toughest part....when I am by myself with no distractions.
Anyway I just wanted to pop in and sincerely thank each and every one of you for your sweet words over the past week or so. I have felt you all holding my hand during the roughest times. When I was taken up to surgery alone and hubby had to wait in the room I suddenly felt panicky and then realized that I had so much support and kind warm thoughts from all over the world. I felt calm and knew that I wasn't alone.
I hope that everyone had a nice Christmas today (for those that celebrate).
My DD went to her dads this afternoon so it's just DS and hubby and I for the next couple of days. I am hoping to get out and get some fresh air tomorrow...I feel myself getting depressed. I got back on my Lexapro (anxiety and helps with depression but it is a very low dose so I need all the natural boost I can get). We are fortunate to have had nice sunny weather here lately. Between that and my high quality Omega-3's I am hoping to nip this post whatever depression in the rear. I definitely feel the dip in hormones similar to after having a baby.
Me - 40 - mthfr c677t and multiple unknown caused m/c's
DH - 41 - old and cranky
DS - 6 - ASD and severe adhd
Thank you for your support I appreciate it. It's been a tough Christmas and that took me completely by surprise. I think that trying for 14 months and getting the diagnosis all caught up with me. This time last year I was excited to think I would soon be pregnant.
Anyway, we have to pick ourselves up and continue trying, the only other option is to give up and I'm not ready for that yet! So I surviving clomid and now into bd season. Cd 11 here. My CM is scant so I have ordered some preseed, anyone got any experience? I'm back at the hospital this afternoon for follicle tracking, so hopefully there is at least one good one growing!
We stayed with my family and then my on laws for the last few days and I left my thermometer, oops! My temps have been all over the place do not sure it was helping anyway.
How are you all doing?
Chuord- have you o'd yet? Must be close?
Mamablue- still blooming and glowing?
Mares- did you see DH for Christmas?
Wengrin- did you enjoy your few days with DH and DS?
Hi to everyone else!
Oxford I was way more emotional while on the letrozole, so your clomid probably made the emotional Christmas soo much harder - you really should be proud.
Wengrin - still sending healing and peace to you, you cope so amazingly well I'm still hoping that you are getting the time to process and enjoy all your other children
Everyone else - what's exciting? Or even boring lol?
Kids are out on Christmas break until Tuesday the 7th so it will be interesting trying to keep everyone busy and not complaining of being bored. Hubby was off work last week but he has to work this week...he took several days off to help me after the miscarriage so he used up those vacation days. Anyway we should be fine. I have projects for DD to work on and when she completes the chores then we'll stay busy doing some fun things.
I hope everyone had a nice Christmas if you celebrate that....our kids had fun making cookies for Santa Christmas Eve and my family was in town for Christmas morning so they enjoyed that. I got a Kitchenaid standing mixer that I have been wanting for soooo long. And some nice sheets for my bed. It was a good holiday.
I am already pining to try to get pregnant again...but I am also reluctant to try because I'm worried about my age and also the feeling of sickness that I had for so long....taking the progesterone was torture. So I have mixed up emotions about all of it. I see my OB tomorrow for the 2 week follow up.
Primal, how are you doing? Didn't you get pregnant the cycle after you miscarried? I hope you don't mind me asking. I just thought I remembered someone from the board that miscarried and then tried right away. I was going to ask my doctor how long they suggest waiting, but from what I have read it doesn't matter except for pregnancy dating purposes. Now that they have the ability to scan and measure the exact length they're able to determine gestation from that anyway, I would think.
Chuord sounds like you're doing well! Keep up the "work". You've been a good girl with all the BD. :-)
I can only imagine what the meds do to your hormones Oxford, like Chuord said the med she took threw her for a loop. I was a nauseous hormonal moody zombie on progesterone. That was torture. It is worth it though to have a healthy baby of course.
I hope everyone is doing well and I will catch back up with the personals when I have some time...it has been constant busyness with the kids home all day.
Does anyone homeschool here? I was just curious how that works for people.
Take care everyone. xx
Oxford and Chuord -- I am very excited for your upcoming cycles.
Chuord, I've read a lot about people who jump straight to IVF getting pregnant faster with a lower risk of high order multiples. A lot of docs are going that way now. I hope it happens for you quickly now that you're on that path. But maybe this month will do the trick, and that won't be necessary; that would be great. I hope DH is taking his vitamins! ;-)
Oxford -- Fingers crossed for you! I have more than one friend who needed Clomid for that TTC boost, and was able to conceive once they started it. I hope this is the thing that does the trick for you. And I read and really felt what you wrote about feelings about motherhood around Christmas. That must be so hard. I can imagine being tempted to just run away to something tropical until the season is over, but you and DH were around for your stepdaughter... Anyway, it must have been so tough. I hope you can find some relaxation and enjoyment for yourself now that it's done.
Wengrin -- I'm glad you're feeling better. Please continue to feel free to talk about your experience however you need to. It took me a long time (both times) to get past the worst of the sadness after my miscarriages. It really is okay to feel it, whatever "it" is, for as long as it's there. It's so hard mourning something as abstract as an early pregnancy, but it's a very real experience.
I got pregnant the cycle after I lost my first pregnancy, and my first son was the result. I didn't have any problems with that pregnancy aside from some random bleeding. It took longer this time; I miscarried in May and got a positive in November. Yes, I do think the whole "wait a month" advice is about dating the new pregnancy, but early scans can be done. I would maybe pay attention to how you feel and start trying when you feel as though you've healed physically and are emotionally ready to try. Some miscarriages are harder than others and may need more recovery time.
AFM, I'm doing alright. I traveled across the country last week to spend Christmas with my family, and while I'm glad I did, boy is that an undertaking with three kids and a tired momma. I'm very happy to be home. Physically, I am tired and up-and-down with nausea. I got Zofran from my doctor, and it helps when it's at its worst. My insomnia is pretty bad right now. I'm having trouble getting into a good sleep. Very frustrating to toss and turn and then have to get out of bed early for work. But all seems well so far, and I'm grateful for that. This is farther than I got with either of the pregnancies I lost (9 weeks and 3 days today), so I'm feeling more confidence. I did have to stop my prenatal vitamins because of horrible constipation, I think from the iron. I am going to talk to my doctor about what alternatives I have.
I have a crazy week at work this week getting ready for a trip next week and catching up from being away last week. Wish me luck for hanging in physically so I can get everything done.
Re dh - yes he is taking them (woohoo) it's a shame he had to wait for a specialist to tell him though... Ranee and I have been trying to give him zinc for 6 months!
I need to post a pic of my chart - I think that I have O'd 4 days early! Very weird as I've always had a long cycle, lucky we started early as instead of fab coverage I've now got 3 days - hopefully that's enough!
I hope you all are doing well.
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