It's always better to let yourself feel whatever you are feeling than to try to change whatever your emotions or feelings are at the moment into something you perceive to be better or more appropriate.
So I guess one minute I am excited and hopeful and the next worried and doubtful. And hopefully that will get better as time progresses. 😊
I'm working on relaxing and being at peace with my worry lol... Sleep well!
Chuord- congratulations on your BFP! That's great news. Two little ones to add to our graduate roll! You have worked so hard taking all the most advanced drugs to support your body, you deserve this.
I agree with primal for both chuord and wengrin, keep feeling what you are feeling. It will file and change so don't try to stop it And get stuck!
Wengrin, I'm sending you serene happy tummy vibes. Just remember that tiniest bald man! You can do this!
It's CD4 over here and into clomid again. I'm feeling calm this month and open to possibility.
I'm working from home today again. The storms have died down but if course it takes time for the floodwater to recede. I braved the trains yesterday and it was a 7 hour round trip (usually 5), so I'm staying in today!
Have a good one y'all!
Oh wow Oxford, that is a long commute!! You normally travel 2 1/2 hours each way to get to the office? That is a really long commute. It used to take me an hour and 15 min each way when I was working, when I had to drop off and p/u DD...I would collapse after getting home at 6:45, make dinner clean up take our baths, etc. I can't imagine a 2 1/2 hour commute! Glad you're able to work from home today.
Chuord how are you doing? Hope things are going well. Did you have a dr appt?
I am waiting to make my appt for some reason. I guess because I figure I am still very early. I want to make sure this isn't another chemical. I will call and get in next week though. AF isn't due until Fri so I am only 3 weeks 2 days I guess. Very early.
Lindscott- did you change your appt? How are you doing? I was told that if you're coming in for fertility treatments they want you to call the day you start bleeding. Then come in on CD 3, have blood drawn and a pelvic ultrasound. Then come back on CD 10 I believe and recheck? So to me it sounded important to call right away so you can get in on the proper days. I hope you are doing well.
How about you SCJP- is your cycle over yet? Did it seem more normal? I worried during my 1st AF following my D&C, I expected it to be heavy and crampy but it wasn't. It was a very strange period. Won't go into TMI but it was just sticky and strange. Not the full flow I expected.
How is everyone else?
Mares did you ever find a place to move into? How are you getting along?
I took another test this AM and darker line showed up within 3 min this time. Still light pink but there. I will add a pic. I had so much dizziness and vertigo last night that I couldn't do much. I heated up soup and hubby and DS had to fend for themselves. I couldn't stand up without the room spinning. Very strange. It's better today. I hope that doesn't come back. We have a 2 day cheer competition this weekend so I need to be able to function well for that. We are going with our mother-daughter travel roommates this time so that will be fun. The girls always have a really good time together and the other mom and I can chat. Nice time away. But lots of work too so hopefully that vertigo won't come back.
Hope everyone is well. Take care.
Chourd - I'm thinking good thoughts for you and your beta today.
Oxford - Since you are dong a monitored cycle, are they going to do an IUI, too? Either way, I'm full of hope for you.
AFM - Three of my kiddos are sick with a mild fever and a cold and cough. It's not really too miserable, we're just hanging out at home doing schoolwork like we would be doing anyway. We're just taking it slower than usual. Hopefully I don't catch their cold. I dislike being sick very much. But on a fun note, I've been feeling the baby kick more which is awesome.
Wengrin - Definitely darker! Yay, mama! That must feel good, even if there are other concerns. Do you have an appointment arranged for betas yet? I'm sorry about the vertigo, that is a really terrible feeling. I'm still having a lot of sickness, my sinuses seem to be really swollen and it makes me dizzy and sick about half the week. I'm so tired of it. And then I'm sure the vomiting it causes only irritates the sinuses more. It's really neat how much you do for your DD and her passion. I don't think the majority of kids have parents willing to invest so much time (and money, I assume) into interests.
Chourd - I'm thinking of you as well! Excited to hear news.
Oxford - Is that a typical commute where you live? That's so long! One of the reasons it's been so hard for us to find a house is because DH doesn't want to drive more than 40 mins or so. I definitely understand why, but it's frustrating seeing these great properties come up that are a little less than an hour away and he won't make an offer on them. It's really putting a strain on our relationship.
Mamablue - Sorry your kiddos are sick! I'm glad you're feeling more movement, though. That is so awesome. Being sick is always miserable, but especially when you're pregnant and there is so much less you can do to help with comfort! I hope it skips over you.
AFM - Things haven't been going very well. DH and my relationship has really been suffering. When he's gone he seems to just totally withdraw and shut me out. After a huge fight last week that had me seriously contemplating a future in which we weren't together, he seems to have finally been able to hear me and try and make changes instead of just reacting with anger. It was horrible, but he's really done a lot to act on what I talked to him about. We also made an offer on a house, and it was accepted. It still has to pass inspection and assessment (of the value (for our loan type)) but hopefully that will all go well. I think living under the same roof will really be the cure to any remaining problems we might have.
As far as the pregnancy, it's not been as smooth as I was hoping. Things just feel very different. I'm still sick a lot and have intense sinus pain and pressure about half the week. I'm smaller than I was with DS at this point and almost never feel movement. It makes me wonder if there's something wrong. I did find out last week that I have an anterior placenta, so that makes sense as to not feeling much movement. We heard the heartbeat last week and it was good, and the midwives said at this point I'm measuring alright. I'll feel better after the anatomy scan, though. I need to call and make that appointment today.
Here at 17 weeks (this week) with DS on the left and this baby on the right. Pretty big difference. I do think it is a girl, though. I don't have any pictures of me pregnant with DD at this stage.
Girl absolutely in love with boy and our DD (11/06), DS1 (08/11) and DS2 (brand new!)
Mamablue - hugs on all the sick kid lets! Fx you don't catch it...
Mares - you are so cute pg! I'm with mamablue on both your size (being that unwell you will be smaller) and dh (being apart causes tension, plus you're both miserable being alone in the first instance add a few issues and sparks will fly) re sinus problems - is it possible for you to try a week without dairy? Since I've cut it almost out (I eat butter) my sinus' are heaps clearer which means less infections... Just a thought. Hoping the sickness stops for you soon xx
Ok today's test is another just there, I think it may be lighter... So possible chem, but I've got to go do a beta this morning so I'll find out for sure.
me 40, DH 40, one (TTC since November 2012) At least one confirmed chem.Ivf #1 march 2014 - 6 day 6 blasts, bfn, 4 frosties. Ivf #2 may, cancelled, Ivf #3 July two transferred, 3 frosties... BFP! Scan at 6+4 wks - twins!! Feeling more blessed than words!
I will ask them and see, I'm sure I am/was pg this cycle (weird smells, sore bbs, cramping for over a week - the gentle location specific cramping) - will wait for the results and see what it says... Also I've been taking progesterone suppositories do I'm interested to see if it affected my levels... Lucky for me I saw Ranee yesterday and we cleared my fear of the unknown... So now I can be rational - lol it's a happy place after the hormone hell.
Anyway thanks for your support ladies, Wengrin - I'm totally over the moon for you!
Afm - I'm out hcg was minimal... Onwards and upwards! Just waiting on AF now until mega meds... Frustrating journey this
I'm sorry Chourd. I love your positive attitude, you're a very inspirational woman to know. I'm very glad to have "met" you. I'm glad you're still looking ahead - you know you have a baby waiting for you! And just wait until you tell him or her about the journey it took to reach them.
Girl absolutely in love with boy and our DD (11/06), DS1 (08/11) and DS2 (brand new!)
Wengrin - how are you? Any news?
Thanks for the encouraging messages, I appreciate it. I'm looking forward to my chance this month. DH is all set up for alternate day bd next week!!
Mamablue- sorry to hear about your poorly kids, hope you are all better soon. When is your next scan? Are you feeling more comfortable in this pregnancy now?
Mares- nice to hear from you and cute bump! It does sound very stressful for both you and DH :-( that would strain any relationship. Now you are so close to buying a place could you afford just a few months of rent to all be together? It's not the sort of support you can get from anywhere else. Are your parents helpful with the kids? Hang in there.
Prescott- welcome back!
Mamablue- hope your kiddos feel better soon. This has been a rough cold season. Mine have been sick as well. We have all had a cold for a couple of weeks. Everyone in our toddler playgroup had it last week. We had play dates planned for the kids and had to cancel. Even Friday we had planned a Valentines party for them and we looked forward to it for so long....but everyone was sick so we canceled that too. It has been rough.
thought I was on the mend but maybe I had a relapse. We have been so busy running around out of town every weekend. It is utterly exhausting. I am looking forward to next month- no traveling.
Oxford that sounds like you have DH all prepared for a week of BD fun! ☺️
Prescott- welcome back! Glad you're ready to try again. Maybe these younger swimmers will do the trick. 😉
I haven't tested again because I'm out of tests...so I need to pick up some cheapies today or tomorrow. I think I will schedule my appt for next week, if the test is nice and dark by the weekend.
Have a great day all!
As far as weight gain- can you drink an Ensure or something like that each day? A friend of mine is pregnant- 32 weeks and she got a warning from her doctor last week. They're worried because of her lack of weight gain and over the past couple weeks the baby hasn't grown....they did a scan and said her measurements are normal except for her little belly (the baby) so my friend is downing Ensure and trying to eat lots of carbs. I'm sure your little bean is fine, but it wouldn't hurt to add a supplement or try to eat more protein. You are an absolutely adorable pregnant mama. I didn't gain much weight with DD and I had people worrying about me, but she was just fine. Then with DS I gained a ton! Lol....but it was soooo hard to lose. My body is still out of whack. So anyway I just wanted to share that story with you from my friend....she was terrified that she didn't find out until 32 weeks that her weight was an issue. She is wondering if her baby was lacking nutrients during the crucial formation period. So at least you are aware of it early, and taking care of yourself. I am glad you had the chat with hubby and he is considering places that are outside of his original criteria for the commute. Hopefully you'll get this house. Fingers crossed for you!
My DH and I have had a rough patch recently too, and it makes it so hard to cope when your relationship is rocky. But every relationship has different seasons, and external pressures never help. Hang in there.
Take good care of yourself.
Scjp- glad AF was kind. I'm cd5 so we are almost buddies this month!
Chuord- how are you feeling? I hope you can do something nice this weekend to recuperate.
Mares- wengrin is very wise! Hang in there and your relationship will get back in track, we all know how much you two adore each other. You can heal when you're back together. Keep eating though. Lots of carbs and veggies!!
Wengrin- I'm hanging out waiting for your beta. Any appointment yet? Any strange pregnancy symptoms? Pickled gherkins?
Mamablue- how are you and the bump?
I phoned the hospital today and they have agreed to track me this month. Yay! I love seeing those eggs baking and knowing how many chances we have! Hopefully there will e a good crop this month, I'm feeling positive about it. DH and I are going away this weekend so it will be a good start to the BD season!!! ;-)
Have a great evening everyone.
SCJP- I agree with Mamablue,I would not go this next cycle alone. 100 day cycle is not normal...bloodwork can tell you if there is something that needs to be adjusted. I hope you can get in to see the doctor. Or did you say you already had an appt? I can't remember....
Lindscott did you get in to see the Dr?
Big hugs to you Chuord- hope you spend the weekend doing something relaxing.
Wendy - I'm hoping so much that this one continues strongly for you.
Oxford - let us know how many are brewing when you know
Sending you all hugs and good vibes for your babies and future babies... I'll be back to proper personals next time xxx
Chuord- go gout and get trollied (drunk), eat sushi with blue cheese and pate and then stay up really late!! You deserve a break :-)
Wengrin- I'm so excited for you. Keep us posted on the testing. We are cheering you on all around the world!
Scjp- I agree with the other ladies, get some help. 100 days is not fun. It sounds like your hormones are a bit mixed up, you may need something to help you stabilise and re-boot them!
For me, I just thought I'd share what is happening as I am in a different place. I'm pleased to say I've finally found my zen!!
A woman I trust told me I WILL get pregnant and have a baby and I believe her. Accepting that has released a lot of fear, anxiety and control. I feel like I have been pushing and forcing things trying to make something happen or hit the right formula to mix a baby. It's not going to work! Now I have laid back, relinquished control and I'm enjoying time without a baby with me 24/7. Now I'm confident it is going to happen I can actually enjoy this time with grace and ease, it's lovely! So I have stopped TTC it's too much work, I'm just going to get pregnant over the next few months. I went for a massage last night with my usual lady and she couldn't believe the difference in my body having let go of a load of fear.
So I don't hol this up to tiers as advice because I know if you are trying very hard you are not going to believe you can get what you want without controlling it (I know!). But I just thought I would share some light and zen and
Hopefully make you smile!
Right I'm going for my first tracking appointment and this month I'm going to watch my eggs grow like an excited bystander and stay out of my own way :-)
Have a good day.
Yes Chuord, sushi and lots of booze and some soft cheeses and whatever else sounds good for your free weekend. Enjoy yourself!
Well I took another test this AM and still positive. It came up within 20 seconds. But it is a different brand of test so I can't really compare. I like lining up the same tests and seeing the line get darker. 😉
Here is a pic. Hope everyone is doing well! Have a great day.
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