Oxford -- That sounds like a good plan re: your job. Life is too short to stay at a job that you hate. I'm very much hoping with you that you end up having to stay after a successful IVF cycle, though. I am sorry that you are feeling down. Between the effects of the meds and the discouragement of your last cycle, I think it's entirely natural. You have shown so much determination and stamina in this process, and it's such a hard journey. I am thinking of you, and I hope that you are able to get some reprieve to refresh yourself before you begin again in August.
Chuord -- How were the in-laws? Any other fun stuff going on?
Mamablue, Mares -- How goes these final weeks?
Wengrin -- Still feeling well, I hope. Any big summer plans before late pregnancy slows you down?
Anyone else I'm missing - HI!
AFM, I'm doing well. The heat and humidity aren't fun, but I'm doing alright by limiting when I'm out at the hottest times of the day. Pregnancy is slowing me down more and more, but I'm really trying to be present and appreciative of this experience. It's hard to believe that, in another month or so, this will be over and I won't experience it again. I'm definitely not wanting to waste this time by focusing on my discomfort and awkwardness. I have four more weeks at work, and then I'll be working at home until delivery. Taking that a day at a time, too; my focus isn't what it used to be, and I have to really struggle to get through what I need to get done.
Overall, though, life is good. The alternating kid schedule is working well. The fighting in the house was really getting to me, so it's wonderful to have a little more peace. My younger son is continuing his counseling, but I can't say I'm seeing any kind of change yet. He has two appointments this week, and we may start the conversation about medication. It feels soon for me, but we kind of want to get adjustments done before school starts for him in the fall. I don't know what the right thing to do is. I'll probably just see what the doc has to say. The cost of the appointments is becoming stressful, as my ex husband hasn't contributed at all, even though he had agreed that he would share the cost of it with me. It's really frustrating that this burden is only on my family. My ex and his fiance both work full time and only have the two boys half time. I'm the only one working in my home, and I'm supporting five (soon to be six) people. I can't stop taking DS for treatment, so I end up being the one who pays. It's really exasperating when I hear about my ex planning parties and trips, not to mention an apartment larger than they need, but is not paying for his son's necessary medical care. My husband and I stopped getting our own marital counseling (which was actually doing us a lot of good) so that we could afford to take DS for care. I just don't understand my ex not understanding that paying for your kids' real needs isn't optional. But we're getting through it.
What's up with everyone else?
M/C at 8 weeks -- May 2000. DS #1 -- March 2001. DS #2 -- November 2002. (Ten year break!) DD -- October 2011. M/C at 8 weeks -- May 2013. Expecting #4 late July.