I am back on the board.
I had an ultrasound today. No heartbeat. Gestational sac measured 6 to 7 weeks, and I am 8.5 weeks now. It also just looked emptier than it did last time, 2 weeks ago :-(
I have an appt with my ob for Jan 2.. They called her office. She wasn't in, but one of her collegues was She could see me right then if I wanted I told them i would prefer to wait for my own ob. I didn't want to go through my whole history with somebody I don't know. I figured there wasn't anything they could do anyway
They were really nice. Expected me to fall apart, even brought me a box of tissues, asked whether I would be ok to go home by myself. I was fine though, or at least outwardly so.
I guess it just was too good to be true.