Hi there. I haven't posted here before because I frequent another board, but I thought maybe with this board having so many members, there will someone who totally gets me. First some background, I conceived dd#1 while I was on the pill, dd#2 was conceived first cycle off the pill. Everyone has always joked about me being Fertile Myrtle, etc. Well, we are trying for #3 now, and going into the third month of trying. I am so depressed. I know it has only been 2 months, but I can't stand it. I honestly have so much respect for those who try for long periods of time, I don't know how you do it.
I am having weird symptoms and stuff because of the hormones, but jeez, all the symptoms could be pms or pregnancy... way to narrow it down, huh? I am stressed, I know that. DH has been working long hours and is hardly ever home lately, so I am taking care of the girls 24/7 pretty much by myself. AND dd#1 is in this phase where she is talking back and pitching fits when she doesn't get her way. She will scream and stomp and be an absolute terror. I keep having thoughts like, well maybe my luck ran out, I am not fertile like that anymore, or maybe TPTB can see that I can't handle the kids I have (or at least one of them) so he/she/they isn't going to bless me with another one. Crazy, right? I just feel like I am at the end of my rope and it has only been a couple of months. I just don't have anyone to talk to about it. The few people that I have talked to have basically given me the, "It's only been a month or 2" speech, or, "You don't know what having a problem getting pregnant is, so why are you depressed/worried?"
Stress is a nasty thing, but not having anyone to validate my craziness is not helping. I am in tears even though I know it has only been a couple of months, but I can't help it.
Ughh. Thanks for letting me get this out. No one even has to reply, just typing it out helped a bit.