Small world indeed, I grew up in Rochester...... the one in upstate New York.Tenk
I need to give you a big
hug. I am so sorry for the loss of your perfect girl. I don't know why something so horrible would happen. Some folks believe that those little ones which are lost before they are born will come back to us in another body that works better for them.
I hope you get your bfp soon, and that it eases the pain of missing Kamryn.Fola
, I am sorry AF found you.
:ItyBty, Lilyflower, Christy, Anonymousk, and Funnygrace
, your charts are all looking really good
: I see more bfps coming to this thread soon.
Ok, how did the HSG go ? (the hysterosalpingogram). Well, I wish I could say it went smooth as silk, but I won't lie to you. Yes today is Friday the 13th, in its somewhat unlucky sense, but this story does have a happy ending.
Ok first, it is done at the hospital, and the parking there is very tight. I was almost late because I had to just drive around until someone left so I could park in their spot. It felt crazy. Last night I had terrible sleep, thinking about the HSG and just feeling anxiety. Anyways, I finally get in and find the right place and they don't have me on their books. I tell them that they called two days ago to check on my insurance. There is a big crazy runaround and finally they find me there under my maiden name which I would never have guessed because I have been married over 7 years and have never been there before.
Ok finally, I am taken back and lock my clothes up and go into the x-ray room. My helper (I don't know her title... nurse, assistant, tech, not sure) was a very nice woman who told me she had gone through an HSG before herself (she & her dh wound up divorced and he turned out to have male factor anyways). I met the assistant radiologist who was to do the procedure, he was nice, we all chatted. Ok lay back, speculum, like a pelvic exam, I am thinking, ok I can deal with this it only takes a few minutes. Wrong. As it turns out after many futile attempts including a painful incident with the speculum, this dr (?) gives up and gets the senior radiologist to come in. Which I am all for at that point, I want the most experienced person doing this. We go through it all again, and finally he gets it. It was hard to get the cathereter through my cervix. I kept thinking of Funnygrace and her secret uterus.... and that I have a secret cervix that is very difficult to deal with.
Well I guess it was enough to keep me from going crazy because just when I was about to give up and say I couldn't take anymore it finally worked. I had some cramping, it was similar to having AF and the uncomfortable sensation was like getting a pap smear. Painwise it was very similar to getting an annual gynelogical exam, I would think, unless you have some crazy cervix like mine that takes and hour instead of 5 mins.
Once they got the cathereter in it was a piece of cake and took like 3 minutes. They had me turn side to side. There was a tv monitor there but I wasn't able to see it while the procedure was done, I did see it afterward for the last shot, a normal looking upside-down-triangle uterus with tubes and spillage out of both tube ends. The Radiologist said both tubes were open and it all looked normal.
: That was worth all the trouble.
So happily ends the saga of the HSG. I have spotting and clear contrast fluid leaking but I am hoping I am back to normal tomorrow. I took two aleve an hour before my appointment and I think it really helped. I had some cramping this afternoon similar to AF.
Of course, as I was laying there experienceing all this trouble with my cervix it makes me wonder if the little spermies have trouble navigating it as well