Successful Testicular Biopsy. ICSI Stories?
I am not very active on the forums, but I have been lurking for a long time. I have been wanting to write a post, but I don't know the appropriate section of the forum, and I suppose, I don't have a direct question. I would love to hear from ICSI success stories.
My husband had a successful (bilateral) testicular biopsy, and I received a phone call to confirm that viable sperm were found. We have a follow-up in a couple of weeks to discuss moving forward with ICSI. I have been anxious to start the process, but I also have a lot of concerns.
I have severe depression, and I am nervous about the impact of the various medications (and pregnancy) on my mental health. I am also working part-time, and I will be starting graduate school in September. I am scared that I will not be able to cope.
Unfortunately, I have to work. I have thought about applying for student loans, rather than working, but I'm not comfortable with taking on debt, at this point. I will eventually have to apply for loans. (We are depleting our savings for ICSI, and for the first year of graduate school). My husband is completely unable to work for disability-related reasons, and is not eligible for government support while I am in school. The financial stress is a lot to cope with (independent of school and pregnancy). The timing is less than ideal.
All that aside, I am very conflicted, because of my husband's health. My husband has a fatal disease. He is prognosis is based on a median survival of two years. We were given that prognosis over a year ago. (We started the IVF process almost a year ago. There have been a lot of delays, waiting for referrals, consults, etc.).
The future is completely uncertain. I want to be hopeful, but I also have to be honest with myself. Every week that goes by, I am increasing the likelihood of becoming a widow, and with ICSI, a single parent. Can I do this alone? I know that I am the only one with that answer, and in truth, I do not have a lot of support. I'm really scared. I do not know whether I should go ahead with ICSI, or wait, and risk losing my husband during the pregnancy (or before starting ICSI). (Should I be posting in the single parenting section?). We have all the reasons in the world to wait. We also have all the reasons in the world to start right away.
What am I asking from you? I don't know. Support? Well, I'd also love to hear some ICSI stories. In particular, I want to know about how invasive it is. What about experiences on a body-based level? I know that can't completely inform my decision, but I am worried about my body's ability to handle all of this. I apologize for this novel.
Last edited by treehugger86; 08-26-2014 at 08:25 PM.