I'm a weird situation, in that I had a lot of Western intervention BEFORE ever TTC, and I turned away from it just as I was beginning to TTC. I've written lengthy versions
of this story here before, so I'll be brief now:
I am a freak from another planet. I have never had a diagnosis of my reproductive weirdness (that didn't get disproven after a while). When untreated, I ovulate and menstruate 2 to 6 times a year, often with long gaps between. What the tests show is that from O to AF all my hormones are totally normal, but then the next cycle doesn't start. My system "hangs" at about CD7 hormone levels...for a long time...until an unknown cue, perhaps from my alien moon, triggers O again. Occasionally I've had up to 5 cycles in a row that were 4-6 weeks long, but often I just have one and then hang for a few months.
My ovaries, tubes, and uterus are all in perfect condition. The problem must be in my brain
ild in the hypothalamus or one of the other glands sending signals to the ovaries. My thyroid levels are normal. I don't have a brain tumor. There is, as far as a dozen doctors including 3 REs have told me, no further investigative technique or treatment for the root cause of my oligomenorrhea (which just means infrequent cycles). All they can do is chuck hormones at me.
And that's what they did, beginning when I was 14. I took various progesterone supplements, eventually taking high doses every month on the orders of the first RE, whom I saw at 16; I did not get a second opinion for over 4 years. After that I scaled back and used progesterone only after >3 months "hanging". I have had, FOUR times, a sudden horrible overdose-like reaction to a form and dosage of progesterone that I'd taken safely dozens of times; nobody can tell me why, and that really worries me.
The cynicism and derision and condescension of Western doctors, and REs and gynes in particular, have really turned me off. The last straw was an annual exam in which the RE:
1. Told me before she'd even done the pelvic, and without any other tests, that I was in OVARIAN FAILURE and would have to take HRT until I was "ready for Clomid".
2. Told me that the strange extra bleeding I'd been experiencing after every period for almost a year was nothing important, even tho it was very different in both timing and appearance (like watery ketchup) from anything I'd ever had, because given my history there was no point expecting normality.
3. Insisted that I could not possibly have ovulated 13 days before this exam because women who don't have consistent cycles of 20-40 days are always anovulatory.
4. Told me that when my partner and I were ready to have a baby, she would put me on Clomid immediately, that there was no point TTC naturally, and that if I thought I could succeed at that I was "delusional". (I had never had unprotected sex in my life.)
5. Resisted sending me for an ultrasound until I insisted.
The day after that exam, I got my period, just as my body had told me to expect. A week later, the ultrasound revealed a fast-growing fibroid tumor in my uterus that had commandeered a blood vessel and was responsible for the extra bleeding. She would never have found it had I not insisted on ultrasound. I let her do the surgery to remove the tumor. I went to the post-op checkup. She again insisted that I had to take Clomid. I walked out and never went back.
I've been seeing a certified nurse midwife who is much more willing to listen to me and to explore options. I don't consider it "fertility treatment" so much as reproductive health care while I recover from Western treatments and, more importantly, the Western mindset (I am defective and must be forced into the model of health) so that I can conceive. MrBecca and I initially agreed that if we didn't conceive after a year, I'd go to a different RE and try Clomid. But now that it has been a year, we're not ready for that. I've just started acupuncture, I feel that it might be working, and I want to give it a fair shot. Also, I still feel that if I just trust my body and God, I will get pregnant when the time is right. If I do have to take Clomid to do that, then I will begin to feel a sense that that's the right path--right now, I feel like that's the unpleasant and dangerous way all the popular kids are telling me is the only way to get there, but I really think I can see a way around, and I don't mind walking a little farther and climbing over some rocks.