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i'm on day 3 of stims.
i am pretty much thinking about it all day all the time. its hard to relax!
i feel sorta full in the middle, assuming its from the stims, but after only 2 days? anyone have any experience with this? i'm not thinking ohss, but maybe its just my body reacting to the new medicine in my body?
i have a check on sat morning, waiting for lead follicle to get to >12-14mm, then i'll start ganirelix. estimated trigger 4/5, estimated retrieval 4/7, estimated transfer 4/10.
its hard to tell what my heightened feelings are related to...
is the side effect of the stims? (maybe?)
is it just a general thing to be so nervous before an ivf? (duh...)
both, probably, and they feed off of eachother like a snowball.
finally found my clinic's stats- they are a new clinic and just posted their 2006 report. not so stellar! they only saw less than 100 clients, and the success rate for my age group was, um, less than my general idea i throw around in my head, 50/50... ha, yeah, right... just praying that their embryologist has a freaking awesome month this april! its all so out-of-my-hands at this point. when i took my zithromax pills, i felt like neo going down the rabbit hole in the matrix...
As for me, I had a bad night after finding out yet another friend is pregnant. I swear everytime that happens, I sink into a state of blue for a few days. I've already cut off three other friends because they are either pregnant or just had a baby and so the only thing on their minds in babies and I just can't handle hanging out with them while I go through IVF. My husband thinks I'm being mean but I swear, it's for my own sanity! Do any of you feel the same way?
I am right at the end of my cycle (triggered last night at 11:45pm for ER on Sunday) but I wanted to tell you guys that I TOTALLY feel your pain with regards to the clinic and staff being slack. I couldn't read the thread without commiserating with you for a minute!
I can't even begin to tell you all of the problems I have had. I am also in a drug study so that makes it even worse (double the number of appointments). My clinic is 2 hours away. They have screwed up about a million things. Everything from calling me at the last minute to tell me that I couldn't be seen at their satellite office closer to me (and only staffed by one person) so I had to drive at the last minute to the main office... all the way to them mixing up my chart with another patient with the same last name from the same town. They have also forgotten procedures they needed to do, forgotten to return my phone calls, sent mail to the wrong address (after I gave them my new address three times), etc., etc., etc.
I finally spoke to one of the drs. yesterday who blew me off and told me I was being unreasonable and "could just drop out of treatment and the study" if I wanted. I was appalled... and completely upset. Of course, there is no way in hell I would drop-out two days before ER and he knew that. I realize to them that I am just another patient but I do feel that their sensitivity is lacking. This is a one time deal for us. We can't afford it again financially, emotionally, or time wise. My significant other works offshore for 5 week at a time stints (5 home, 5 at sea) and when he is gone I am basically a single parent. And, our local family doesn't even know we're doing this because they would be les than supportive. SOOOO.... I do feel like we (along with everyone else going through IVF) deserves a little more compassion, professionalism, and flexibility from the staff.
Anyways, it's been a difficult and long month (and I'm not done yet!) but I am hoping and praying it will be worth it in the longrun!
my cycle seems to be speeding up a bit. i had to begin ganirelix today, as my lead follicle was 15mm. onto daily monitering now. my nurse said she wouldn't be surprised if we triggered earlier than the 5th. we'll see.
i was so thankful to get that ganirelix into my system!! last cycle, i ovulated thru the lupron, and now i have a speedy-mcspeedster follicle that needs to take a chill pill. the others have to catch up!! apparantly the ganirelix works instantaneously to stop lh, so, well, i guess i need to relax!
i thought i would be quieter about posting but i seem to be chatty... maybe my typing-fingers are getting stimmed too