HAHA, I haven't even talked to dh about it, how bad am I?? Although I know him well enough to know he will be fine with it.
I've done clomid 2x total before. Once for a CCCT (clomid challenge test to check ovarian reserve) and once for a clomid/IUI cycle that never worked (that was September 2001). I just knew that trying right after the WTC wasn't going to work, because I was so stressed. I never ended up Oing that cycle.
The problem is that I started getting really freaky, feeling like I was crazy that cycle. But now that I think about it, it was when everyone was feeling crazy so maybe it wasn't just the clomid?
I'm midcycle now so I have to wait for AF. Feeling a bit nervous since I am 39 1/2 with a almost 14 year old. But Dh and I have really worked out some past issues we had that I know effected me being ready to have a child and we are so close. I just feel like we are finally ready to do this.
I sometimes wonder if it's just me wanting to fill the noid of the baby we lost. Ok, I'm going to take that past to TTC after a loss board.