Dh and I are happy with out two wonderful kiddos. Our house accomidates our family size perfectly, I can handle the two of them as a SAHM, our income isn't ideal for a more kiddos, my health isn't so fantastic right now, I have some personal career goals I'd rather not put off another 6+ years until kiddos are in school, etc, etc, etc... everything points to us not having any more kids. I was TOTALLY on the no more babies train.... that was until PP AF returned a couple months ago (ds is 14.5 months). I know my new googoo eyes over babies are just hormones racing around because AF is back coupled with ds being less dependent (even though he always has me on my toes getting into trouble, still BFing quite a bit, and a mama's boy). 2 or 3 weeks out of the month I'm fine with the idea that at 25 I've left my baby having days behind but, that other week and a few days my hormones are trying to talk my brain into stupid things. If I were to get pregnant I'd never regret it and I'd be easily turned to being happy with the new little growing inside but I'd rather not have to even think about that at all. Dh doesn't want more but, he wouldn't be upset if there was ever an oops. So thats not an issue I have to worry about.
So, my question is not whether or not I should have another. My question is how on earth do I ditch the internal conflict between brain and ovaries?! The inner aregument going on behind the scenes while I go about my day is pretty annoying. I want smooth sailing like I had until PP AF made her way back. It doesn't help that I've had 4 periods in the last 2 months either.
~TRACY, wife to loving dh, mommy to dd (10/05), ds(12/08), 3 kitties, & 2 pups.