I know how you feel. It is a hard decision.
I don't have such a medical danger with pregnancy but I'm really afraid that if I have ppd again that it will ruin my family permanently. So from that perspective, I know how you feel. I don't have insurance, am unhappy with every birth control method but am just not sure I want to take such a permanent step.
So, no answers from me, just empathy.
I have terrible periods...really bad ones, so painful...I was always a 3 day light girl...after all the kids...now it's a friggin 7 day mission. I have no help for you other than trust your gut, and wait till you're positive that your family is complete. I'm putting it out there that I'm ready for a new baby...now I'm just waiting for the the Universe to do it's thing.
Mama to my veggie girl (1/09) and my sweet rainbow baby (9/12).
You could always consider using a surrogate if you really want a baby down the road....your biological child, just carried by someone else. Extreme, I know, but perhaps a better solution than risking your life and that of an unborn baby!
I'm not at your stage, so who knows, maybe I'll take it back later, but I do have a sister in law who has had three high risk pregnancies, three c-sections and three nicu babies, and been told not to have more babies, but is ignoring the recommendation. I couldn't do it. Not with three children at home, I could not risk my life, or that of another child. I would find other options to complete my family.
Doula mama, medic daddy and Tenley Harper born naturally 11/29/11
I stuck it out for about 6 months, then said forget this!
Have you tried using FAM?
Me, DS, and DD Grateful to the baby I lost for sticking around long enough to teach me what I needed to know so badly We love our forest valley home, our goats and chickens, and wild harvested food-medicine