I'm just hoping for some support, here. I have four children now, the youngest being 8 months. I have been practicing ecological breastfeeding and AF has not returned yet. My other children are 8, 3, and 2. I have really been struggling with stress as a parent and think most days I am not a good mother and can't keep it together. In the last two weeks I felt a little different, like there was some sort of shift in my body. So when I started to get a bit of cramping I thought I might be ovulating. DH and I have been using condoms since, and I know that during that time I also had dicharge that was consistent with ovulation. About three days prior to this we did not have intercourse. It's only been a week but I've been having dizzy spells and I am really tired lately. Not really nauseated but it would be too early for a pregnany test. If I am pregnant I am so sad, I wanted to keep my youngest to myself for a while longer. We are already struggling financially and my family worries that we have too many kids already. No one knows about this except for my DH. Are there any other hormonal circumstances that could cause the dizzyness and tiredness? AF coming, maybe??? I'm feeling guilty for my feelings as I know we were talking about doing something permanent for birth control, but now that I may be pregnant I think I didn't watch closely enough so it's my fault, and also feeling guilty that I'm not more happy if I am pregnant. I'm Christian so I should be veiwing this possibility as a gift from God. How will I ever handle another child?