We're hoping to be able to get into a good financial place to be able to start TTC when kiddo turns 2 (in April). I don't know if we'll be able to or not. I've been having a rough time seeing pregnant folk and people with little babies, especially those wearing them. I don't know if it's just wanting a baby, or if it's just as much wanting to be in a position to have a baby.
1. What concerns you the most about TTC?
Insurance. We only have catastrophe insurance right now, and I don't know what we'll be able to afford. I'd qualify for state insurance, but here it ONLY covers "pregnancy related" issues, so if I need phsyical therapy again I may have to fight it,a nd I don't know how many places take it. I'm also worried about how appliny for it will go, I applied for it for kiddo over a month ago and yesterday found otu that his case numbe "doesn't exist". Ugh. Last time, I was on state insurance in CT and it was WONDERFUL
- it even covered all but $450 of home birth! I really wish we'd never moved out of CT...
I don't want to do a home birth again after midwife trauma last time, but I also don't really want a hospital birth and don't feel comfortable doing a UC. So. Dunno.
2. How does your SO feel about TTC, nervous? excited?
Mostly sad about the wait and that we're in a position to have to wait. If we were better off financially we actually might decide to start trying in December or even now. I'm really excited to get pregnant again. Last time, I was at an awful school that spent the first trimester bullying me into an abortion and the rest of my time there making it clear that our baby and us were very unwelcome. Some individuals were good, otherwise we wouldn't've survived, but the institution as a whole was horrifying. The day after I found out I was pregnant (and we were both super happy about it), I was told that if I didn't get an abortion they'd kick me out on the streets and wouldn't let me use my financial aid towards housing. I was terrified about telling people because I couldn't take any more negativity about the pregnancy, so I hid it (and did a great job- a lot of people didn't realize I was pregnant until after I showed up with a newborn).
It'd be really nice to experience being pregnant and being able to just be happy about it and not have constant pressure to kill my baby.
3. How long have you and your SO been together and/or married?
Together for 6 years as of next month, married for 5.
4. Did you have a lovey when you were small?
A stuffed animal my aunt had sewn before I was born. I lost it in Florida.