Warning- whining ahead.
I was kinda burning out in my current position (ICU nurse) and was considering changing to a new position. Also, in the last 6 months a bunch of pesky auto-immune d/o kept popping up in me, so not only am I very hearing impaired now and my thyroid gland doesn't work, but I'm usually feeling pretty fatigued, too.
Then, boom, I'm pregnant. I feel absolutely horrible. You know, all the normal first trimester stuff, along w/my pre-existing "crappy" feeling, but I'm barely making it through my 12 hr shifts. I work 2 overnight shifts a week. I've tried day shifts, and it was even worse. And, now I'm sick w/some upper resp infection thing. My husband is also a nurse, but he does travel nursing, so he's going to be gone until at least April. (It was a drive-by impregnating! LOL
) So, this also means that I'm responsible for everything
at home- my DS, the dogs, chores, paying bills, car upkeep, etc. You name it.
I just want to walk in Thurs night and quit. This is a dumb idea. I do love what I do. I carry our health insurance. While we can certainly live off of my husbands income, if I work that gives us a big savings cushion we can use. And I think I'll feel better when the 2nd trimester starts; at least I did when I was pregnant before. So, I just need to stick it out. We've already agreed that I would not work my 3rd trimester and through the baby's first year, at least.
So many people don't have jobs, and I feel horrible complaining about wanting to leave mine. But I'm in absolute tears
thinking about working Thurs and Fri nights.
If anyone got this far, thanks a million. I just need to get this out, I feel like a total tool for wanting to just quit. Sigh.