Well, I haven't checked here for a couple days-miraculous for me. My boys had a three day vacation from work so we spent time together.
Valentine's Day-my dh cleaned house, I slept in, we made Texas toast french toast, and later I made my special cinnamon rolls. I made a baby quilt (I'll get to that later). It was sunny and relaxing and wonderful if not overly romantic.
Pregnancy-I found out with Tain when I was 8 weeks and didn't feel him until 22. So for me, I feel like this pregnancy will never end! I can't believe my belly is so little and I still have so far to go. Oddly enough, I've measured 2 weeks ahead at my last 2 appts, but I still feel like I look ridiculous in maternity shirts. It is kind of nice to experience a cute little belly. I was overweight with Tain, so it was no belly to huge belly, you know?
I've been thinking about the baby and what to do about a dresser. Honestly, I have no idea. Tain, Matt and I share a room that is 13x10, I think. There is no space in there for another dresser. There is no room in Tain's for them to share. Looks like it will go in the living room. We will be moving 2 months after the birth so I think we can get rid of a couple bookshelves to make room for it. Tain's dresser is a changing table/dresser that his grandpa made. I haven't decided if I am going to make it the baby's and give Tain a big boy dresser (even though he'll still be in diapers probably) or if I am going to try to have 2 types of diapers in it and leave it in the bedroom. Good thing I still have a while!
So the quilt...I had 30 pairs of 6" squares of the same fabric already cut (I was going to use them for wipes, then found that they weren't very absorbent despite being washed and flannel so I never made them). I also had 5 strips of white flannel for the same reason. So I made one of those flannel quilts with the seams out that you cut to make fuzzy. Anyway, the last thing we need is another baby blanket. But I can't decide what to do with it. Dh has a great aunt that made Tain a quilt but her health has really gone downhill and she can't sew anymore. So a part of me would like to keep it for the baby since he won't have one from Aunt Shirley. But we don't need any more baby blankets! I could send it to my sis, she's due in May with a boy, but I never made anything for her last baby (a girl) so I would need to make something for Emily as well and I'm lazy. So I don't know. Oh! Maybe I'll make Emily a doll, I wanted to make one for Tain anyway! Good idea, Julie!
I think Matt and I have decided that he won't be there for the birth. It is a bit of an explanation, let me know if you are interested, but the bottom line is that, while I feel like it is a good decision for us, I can't shake this feeling that the only dad that chooses to not be at his baby's birth is a bad dad. It makes me kind of angry, b/c I feel that our society teaches that to us. And really, I'm not so sure having men at births is all that great. I think it is important for them to understand, but the experience we had was, well, interesting. Matt went into protector mode, he didn't bond well with Tain in the beginning, he was tense and stressed and worried where a woman would not be. He never voiced any of that to me, he never said anything or did anything I can consider detrimental to my labor, but there was an undercurrent of fear that I couldn't do anything about. And really what have they to relate it to? So I guess I am looking for reassurance that we are not freaky, that we are not doing something wrong. Matt plans on being there until labor gets heavy, then leave with my bro (who lives with us) and Tain until the baby is born. Any thoughts?