Soo, I talked to my mom today and realized that I havent gone through a preg or birth without at least seeing my mom and sisters every few months and that isnt possible this time due to finances. I kinda feel like a loan ship at sea.
I try to engage my partner in conversation about this preg and the birth, but it seems like I mostly talk at him because I really dont get alot of eye contact or conversation for that matter. Dont get me wrong he is a doll, and takes excellent care of me, but he is 52 and this is his 2nd child. With his first (29 yrs ago) he was in the waiting room with playing cards waiting for the nurse to come get him, so he really doesnt see what all the fuss about having the baby at home is about. Although he seems supportive MOST of the time. The other night for instance I made the comment that I believed having the baby at home was safer than going to a hosp and he replied "thats debatable"
Le sigh....Plain and simple I just really dont have anyone to talk to about my birth with out defending my plans. Hopefully soon my insurance will go through and I can get a bout finding a MW, whether or not I call her for the birth. Until then, I'm not really sure what I'm looking for other than an "I understand".
Thanks for listening!
Jenny ing HippieMomma. 3rd podling due sometime in July