I have believed i am pregnant, had all the "symptoms", even thought i felt a baby kicking, but there was no baby. Only in rare cases does a woman not get a positive hpt if she's pregnant, especially if she's at that point where she feels the baby kicking. Being scared to take a test is not an excuse. I've found its best to know for certain, it CAN actually just be all in your head. I could have sworn up and down i was pregnant but i really, truly wasn't. This is not a game, it is a possible human life. I hope you go to the doctor and get confirmation soon. If it turns out you're not pregnant, you'll be fine, talk to a therapist if you need to. The experience will help you learn not to get your hopes up without an actual confirmation, if that is the case.