Right now, no one else knows, except you ladies. I took an expired test today that came back negative, but I haave learned that the HcG chemical detection wears off over time, so it may have been a false negative.
This thought that I might be pregnant is consuming my entire mind! It is a complete surprise, also. Both of my other children were planned, down to the day. To maybe be pregnant by accident is a completely new realm to me! I am keeping it to myself until I know for sure, as was the agreement I made with my partner about a year ago. I agreed that if I thought I was pregnant, but didn't know yet, I wouldn't make him wonder too. No needless worrying unless it is actually happening. So I am testing in secret.
I am completely financially unprepared for this. How odd is it of me to be very excited as the prospect of being pregnant? I love pregnancy and babies. I love my partner and I would be so excited to raise a child with him. It just isn't the right time. If I am pregnant, there is nothing I will do about it now, I will just make do and do my best to make it right. There is no harm in looking on the bright side and being happy about it. :)
Anyone else hanging in the delicate balance of not knowing and not being able to tell anyone else about it? I just want to gush to everyone about it!
Oh, I know what you mean, I think. You really want to be pregnant, but if you try and talk to someone about it, s/he will probably just be negative. And then if you aren't pregnant and you're sad about it, you can't really share it with people because they won't get it.
At least I think that's what you mean. In any event, I hope you get the results you are hoping for!