Hello everyone. I just found out sunday that I am 6 weeks pregnant. This came as a surprise to my husband and I as we were not trying and I have fertility issues. I was hoping to post my concerns here to maybe help out with anxiety. Kind of like saying it out loud but to someone I dont know. I find it hard to talk about this wtih people I know because I dont want them to worry about me.
My fear is, Im scared I'm going to lose the baby. I want to be excited and tell people Im pregnant, but I feel like if something happens I cant face them.
I am waiting on my insurance to go through to see a Dr. I have been to a clinic who gave me a sono, and they found two sacks, but she couldnt find a second baby. And that made my anxiety go through the roof. Since then I have been having anxiety attacks. Because now I feel like its a bad sign. I know I wasnt planning on more kids and was planning on getting a hysterectomy, but I cant deal with a miscarriage either. I would have rather this thing never happened than to feel like I lost something. I cant explain why. On top of that I have been having ovarian pain, tho I dont know if its because of my PCOS. Also I have been cramping, but I am wondering if thats from being constipated for the last 3 days. I asked the nurse at the clinic and she said unless Im in unbearable pain and bleeding like I would with a heavy period, I am fine. I cant wait until I can see a Dr. The clinic did offer another sono in 3 weeks if my insurance does not kick in by then. I just cant do this. I know I wasnt happy at first and maybe its guilt Im feeling for thinking that way. Also my husband is thrilled and I dont want him to feel disappointed. Sorry I didnt want to be a downer I just wanted to get this off of my chest because its been on me for days and I have been feeling so sick because of it and feeling alone in this.
My fear is, Im scared I'm going to lose the baby. I want to be excited and tell people Im pregnant, but I feel like if something happens I cant face them.
I am waiting on my insurance to go through to see a Dr. I have been to a clinic who gave me a sono, and they found two sacks, but she couldnt find a second baby. And that made my anxiety go through the roof. Since then I have been having anxiety attacks. Because now I feel like its a bad sign. I know I wasnt planning on more kids and was planning on getting a hysterectomy, but I cant deal with a miscarriage either. I would have rather this thing never happened than to feel like I lost something. I cant explain why. On top of that I have been having ovarian pain, tho I dont know if its because of my PCOS. Also I have been cramping, but I am wondering if thats from being constipated for the last 3 days. I asked the nurse at the clinic and she said unless Im in unbearable pain and bleeding like I would with a heavy period, I am fine. I cant wait until I can see a Dr. The clinic did offer another sono in 3 weeks if my insurance does not kick in by then. I just cant do this. I know I wasnt happy at first and maybe its guilt Im feeling for thinking that way. Also my husband is thrilled and I dont want him to feel disappointed. Sorry I didnt want to be a downer I just wanted to get this off of my chest because its been on me for days and I have been feeling so sick because of it and feeling alone in this.