Things are getting worse not better. Ds is I think reacting to some psychic hormones to latch onto his mommy, and he is become SO energetic (he is pretty active as is) he is just constantly screaming and running around all day long, and hanging on me. I mean hanging, on legs, arms shoulders whatever. Whenever I sit down. I can try and redirect him to sit next to me, and he will have to just hold my pants or something. He frequently IS walking behind me holding my pants. And his nightwaking is getting more intense. He wants me there constantly, he does not want to sleep in our bed, he wants his bead, and it is darn uncomfortable for me in there. If he is in my bed, he wants to hold on to my ELBOWS all night which drives me nuts. I am at the end of my rope. I know I need to take him out for hours each day and just run him crazy but I am so tired and SOOOO out of sorts. And then today he was up at like 6 am, I had DH get up with him and I slept in until 9. Then DH (who is never home during the week usually gets home very late after bedtime) was like hiding in the kitchen all mornign drinking coffee and reading the paper, while ds is hanging all over me and I am saying 10 times a minute "sit on the floor please" "not mommy's tummy", "careful", "okay, lets sit on the floor" as he is hanging on me and then DH says he'll make breakfast, and brings a plate of eggs for ds and leaves. I started bawling becuase I felt so frustrated, I went in the bathroom, then came out and told DH I was taking a shower and he needs to keep ds away from me for 1 hour, if he could manage. And I went and hid in the shower, crying my eyes out. I am so hormonal. I cannot take this. I am so frustrated, angry, antsy, and aggravated by everything in my house (the house is a mess, things are a mess, DH is a slob), etc etc. I want DH to take care of him when he is home, not hide in the kitchen avoiding us both, and I am so tired of being the nazi yelling and ordering around this extremely hyper but craving mamma's attention child. I need DH to clean up after himself and stop making messes. ( I am soooo NOT anal too usually) The house is a mess, DH is just annoying, and ds...well, he is suffering from this all. How the heck am I gonna take care of 2 ? Dh just took ds to the mall I think, so I didn't kill them both. They never do anything together (like errands), so he must realize I am about to crumple into a hysterical heap.
Just venting. I am only 35 weeks. I know it isn't *only* but I'm afraid I'm gonna get worse not better.
Happy new Year everybody BTW and thanks for listening.