I was hoping some of you would be able to help ease my worried mind and body a bit by sharing your stories of early pregnancy spotting with me (for reasons other than implantation spotting or spotting after sex) where everything turned out okay. I am going to be 6 weeks on Friday and have had one red dot on my liner, plus a small smear on the t.p. at the same time last Saturday. Then today, I noticed what I THINK was another small smear of something when I wiped, though I couldn't quite even tell what color it was. That's about it, so far. I've also been experiencing some minor cramps/twinges on and off throughout the day for the past week or so, but nothing seems to coincide with the spotting itself. I also don't really FEEL very pregnant (no m/s), which is totally worrying me. I wish I could remember exactly how I felt this time around with my DD, who is now 26 months. I've been obsessing over every single wipe since I found out I was pregnant 2.5 weeks ago (I'm constantly running to the bathroom because I feel `leaky' and almost feel a little crampy, like I am about to get AF) - am I just a glutton for punishment by doing this and then finding something, or does every body pay this close attention to this? I'm overly anxious and pessimistic about the fact that this might not work out because I just had a miscarriage (blighted ovum) on Christmas Eve and have been doing my best to stay positive and calm, but ever since I saw that little bit of blood, I'm assuming the worst. If anyone can help me by giving me a little hope that I still might end up with a baby this time around, I would really, really appreciate it. I'm doing enough of the doubting and negativity thing myself, so I need someone else to get my hopes up for me, even just a little bit. I had blood drawn yesterday and will again tomorrow, so I'll find out something more definitive on Friday. I just need something to keep me going until then.
Oh, and does anyone also want to help reassure me that nursing my DD many times day and night most likely ISN'T the cause of my miscarriage(s)...? (I haven't told my Mom I'm pregnant yet because I know if it doesn't work out again, she's going to immediately assume it's because I'm still nursing...)Sorry for the long-winded post, and thanks in advance for any responses, Allison