I should start off by saying that I'm not sure if this is more of a question or just a venting, so bare with me. I am 41 weeks with my second child today and while i realize that this is "not that late", I am still concerned. I was induced at 42 weeks 1 day with my daughter and fear that I am on the same path this time around. I can't help but be angry, disappointed, scared and even resentful about this. I have tried in both pregnancies to deliver in a birth center without the use of any meds and feel cheated that it may be taken from me yet again. This is our last child and I feel like I may never have the birth experience I desire. I know that I ended up with a beautiful daughter and that I had very good treatment in the hospital, but it's just not the same as having my family with me and the ability to work through my labor whether it be in a tub or on a ball. I don't want this again and i am at my wits end. I took the herbs, I stayed active, I stayed positive and stress free, I kept smiling, until today. my bubble has burst. I truly thought this time would be different. Any advise?