Hi I am new here! We are planning to possibly have a homebirth with our second daughter due end of feb. I had my first all natural intervention free at a hospital. They were wonderful and followed my birth plan exactly and I was thrilled to be able to have her naturally . When I found out I was pregnant with number 2 a homebirth seemed liked a good idea since I have experienced natural birth and appreciate the process of birth I thought being at home would be amazing! I am having trouble however being completely comfortable with this decision always wondering about the what ifs. My midwife is wonderful but she is a lay midwife and cannot carry pitocin or oxygen with her and that makes me nervous . I also have very severe labial varicose veins that also may be internal and I am worried that try could affect the delivery. Possible rupture? My midwife also doesn't suture so i would have to be transferred if it happened . My friend also lost her baby at 27 weeks so this is causing me some anxiety about birthing at home we well. I feel that if I am still having anxiety at 26 weeks is homebirth really for me?