Join Date: Nov 2003
Location: in a yellow house
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Hi again to all your homebirthing mamas!
I'm about 35 weeks now and have been feeling extra large the past week and a half. We have a midwives appointment tonight before our birth class, and I'm curious to see how much my belly has grown. I've been having lots of (ligament stretching, digestion, intestinal gas, belly stretching, braxton hicks, i don't really know what) pain in the upper right corner of my uterus for the past couple of weeks, and it's really not very comfortable. It's usually especially bad when I first wake up in the morning and it disappears while I'm up and around and walking and moving and seems to return when I sit for too long. That's why I am leaning towards it being something intestinal/digestion related.
My mother blessing is less than two weeks away now, and I'm kind of looking forward to it and nervous about it at the same time. My best friend and I planned it together, so it's definitely my kind of gathering and not all commercially-oriented and such. We designed it for my women friends who live here locally and not the long distance family and friends, but I have a feeling that my partner's family are probably confused by the invitation. His mom thinks we're very "earthy" (we're really not!) since we're not having a baby room or a crib, and one of his sisters is just totally commercially-driven and wanted to buy us a baby monitor (I can hear my cat walking down the hall!), a stroller (we will probably get one, just later so baby can try it out and we can see which one they look/feel most comfortable in), a diaper-genie (umm... we're cloth-diapering) and I forget what else.
Our house is reasonably organized, but it really needs a good, thorough cleaning and some touch-up organizing. Our home office is perpetually cluttered (my partner does this without even realizing it), our front living/dining room has some boxes in it that need to be unpacked, our kitchen pantry and our freezer need to be cleaned out and organized, our family room has somehow acquired a computer and two buckets of papers that need to be filed, and the bookcases need to be moved out of our bedroom into the front room and a couple of shelves to be hung up and we need to buy a rocking chair/glider for the corner. I have a one page list of all the things we still need to buy for the homebirth and for the newborn. It's stuff that I can collect in a day's worth of errands, but I'm just not motivated to do it by myself. Maybe I can talk my best friend into running errands with me now that she is done with school... I can't believe she graduates with her nursing degree this Sunday!
Anyway, I think I have whined enough now. I feel kind of unsettled and not quite ready, and I'm not sure I like this feeling. Every couple of days or so I start randomly crying because I don't want to be pregnant anymore and I'm not sure I'm ready to be a mama or something is on Oprah and makes me sad or I'm too hot because it's 80 degrees out or maybe it's all because Mercury is in retrograde.