yeah amy!! you're a star!! sounds like there's just some unraveling of the connection to figure out--which is nothing compared to getting to this point. that's so rad that you spoke your truth. i love that feeling!
ok, you 34 weekers...i'm only, well, i think 16 weeks from conception, so 18 according to a mw/ob, but i'm facing some of the same fears. but i, for some reason, have more fears about the baby's health/abilities than my body's health/abilities. i worked for years as a pediatric therapist with kids with congenital conditions, neurological problems, and developmental delays. i wondered at the time if it would affect my mindset during my future pregnancy, and here i am wondering about cp, down's, cleft palette, anacephaly, etc, etc. i keep telling myself that most of them are no biggie for home birth, and we're only 6 miles from the hosp. i'm glad it's happening before il's find out we're pregnant, so i can deal with it uninterrupted by their possible fears.
did anyone watch wifeswap last night? i know, i know. but, there was a meditating, peaceful, whole foods, veg mama on it and she said one thing that really stuck with me that i want to add to my birth (and life) affirmations. it was that whatever was going to happen, will happen "with ease and grace". i now feel lucky to have that as my mantra--'it will happen with ease and grace, it will happen with ease and grace'. that's my new attitude for telling the il's about the pregnancy, too. i pray that they'll have the wisdom to see that creating and sharing fears and worries will help noone. i pray that i'll respond to the situation with ease and grace.
so news on my front (no pun intended)~~one of the other pregnant women in town told me she's going to try and get one of the 2 mw in town to do a birthing class geared towards homebirth and asked if we'd be interested. i told her we were, but would want to know what the class would cover before deciding for sure. so...
~~~as a uc-er (to be or already), what kinds of topics would you think would be important/interesting to have covered if we were to take the class? what would you not want covered? how would you respond to the question of who your care provider/mw is, what are your birthing plans, during the class. (since this is such a small town, i would expect the class would be small and this would come up, so suggestions are welcomed!)