I am sorry you're going through this.
as I said, I really understand how disconcerting this feels.
please please don't give up hope. I believe it can work out.
what state do you live in? is your midwife a CPM, a CNM or a lay midwife? perhaps there is another kind of midwife than you know about practicing within an hour or two of where you are?
contact MANA (midwives alliance of north america) they are really helpful, and can provide you with MANA member midwife contacts of all types for your area.
contact citizens for midwifery.
consider the possibility of a HB friendly dr. (a long shot, but I have heard of a few scattered around).
does your state have a midwifery advocacy organization for consumers? here in ohio we are trying to rekindle Ohio Friends of Midwives for just this reason... not enough midwives, and too many afraid to be open about it b/c of the political situation!
post on midwifery today's web boards. I think there is a midwife who hangs out there who is willing to travel around the country to attend births. maybe you can hook up with someone like that?
good luck, I am thinking loving supportive available midwife thoughts really hard in your direction today!