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Okay, this is a really long complicated story, but I'm just feeling so frustrated and having trouble seeing the end of it and I just wanted to let it all out in the company of other like minded mommies!!!!
A couple years ago (in between babies #2 and #3) I was diagnosed with thyroid cancer. I had a partial thryoidectomy and never had any radiation or supplemental thyroid stuff. It was recommended that I get it checked once a year and have an ultrasound done on the remaining half to make sure that nothing is growing on it. No biggie. Fast forward past pregnancy #3 and a beautiful homebirth delivery. Baby #3 is a year and we start trying to have baby #4. We try and nothing is happening. Finally when I'm about ready to give up, I switch my insurance back to Prime. (This means I get priorty treatment at my local huge military hospital, but I can't deliver w/my homebirth midwives on this, I have to switch back to Standard.) I'm thinking that my thryoid has finally kicked the bucket and so I can't get pregnant. Well, just as I switch back to Prime, I get a positive pregnancy test. Yeah, I'm pregnant! Well, I think I'll just stay on Prime and get my thryoid checked out and then go get seen by my midwives after I switch back. But I'm afraid that the midwives will be full (they only take like 25 deliveries a month) by the time I get this all straightened out. So I go see them anyway. The found midwife is lovely and totally understanding. But there are some big questions on my dates and so I agree to do a dating ultrasound (please don't flame me, it's the way I'm choosing to do things). Because I'm on Prime, the insurance will only cover ultrasounds done at the military hospital. So I have to go in, get a positive test with them and go to a RIDICULOUS OB intake class. It is supposed to last FOUR HOURS and I know we'll have to do all sorts of crap; like watch a video on why breastfeeding is best and a video on *labor* like it is in the hospital (flat on your back, iv, epidural, push when we tell you junk junk junk). I know it is going to come up that I had two previous homebirths and I don't want to have to explain the whole damn thing to these ignorant ob nurses. Blah blah blah. Plus, I still need to see an endocrinologist about the whole thyroid thing and so I've got to been seen at the hospital for another month or so before I can switch back. So I'm going to sit through the ob intake class to have my five min dating ultrasound and then I'm never going back to the ob clinic again.
I'm sure this all sounds so ridiculous. I actually feel much better sitting down and typing it out. I'll just bring my crocheting and have some quiet time while listening to the nurse blather about care at the hospital. I'm just so happy I trust my body and I don't have to DELIVER in that place.
SAHM to four beautiful babes :