So there isn't a chance that I'll be going to any hospital when I'm in labor unless I think someone's going to end up dead if I don't.
If there were any birth centers on my island, I might consider going to a birth center, but there simply isn't a single one. So, it's home for me, whenever I manage to get knocked up again.
I've already found an awesome naturopathic doc/midwife who works with an acupuncturist/doula, and we're working to regulate whatever's wonky in my body so we can have our next baby. IF I need any help in labor-- it's probably going to be acupuncture. I'm terribly interested to see how that works out.
I did a big mistake the first time - I went to the hospital too early and I trusted my OB. So I stopped blaming everybody else for the catastrofic birth I had and the horror c-sec which I felt entirely, sedation didn't work. I put the blame on me, cause I did my choice to go to the hospital completely naive and oblivious for all the risks I am taking.
So I had exactly what I went for - a hospital birth that failed and ended up in c-secton.
I finally realised that I owe an appology to myself and my body that I put us through this. But on the other hand I would never know what I know now if I didn't go through ths experience.
And I am happy finally and put the cross on it. It is in the past. This time around when I get pregnant I will stay home and pamper myseld and have the birth I want not what I should have according to the hospital staff or the OB.
I look at my HBAC as a little treat for my body and soul. And they deserve that
Annabelle Catholic wife to Jeff '92 and mom to Makaley 19 Arden 19 Anniston 17 Taegan 14 Balen 12 Kellen 10 Ellery 8 Innish 6 Eiley 4 Finnian 3 Esca 2 our 8th and expecting sweet pea January 2014.
Then, after I made the decision to have an HBAC I did a little bit of research into the local hospitals. Every single one of their "policies" made me uncomfortable - mandatory FHM, mandatory separation from baby/trip to the nursery, etc. I didn't feel that I'd be able to let go and focus on what I needed to if I was in the hospital.
After my HBAC with dd I *knew* it was the only choice for me. I absolutely need to be left alone when I'm in labor - too many people standing around and looking at me makes me feel like I'm being "watched" and need to "perform" or something like that. My mw was totally sensitive to this and spent most of her time in another room. I loved that I didn't have to ask her, she just knew.
Now that I'm pg with #3 (oops!) I did briefly consider a birth center (if they'd "do" a VBAC), but tbh I just can't picture myself leaving my home while in labor. We'll be having another HBAC because both dh and I agree it's the best/safest option for us.
I chose a HBAC b/c I did not want to fight, I had no reason to have to fight for what was safest for myself and baby...
I've scheduled a section, and I'm still fighting with them. It's so unbelievably frustrating and demoralizing. I thought the one plus to this section would be that, unlike any of my others, I chose it. I thought I'd be able to at least push things in a better direction. Surgery's in less than six weeks, and I'm really not optimistic.
Lisa, lucky mama of Kelly (3/93) , Emma (5/03) , Evan (7/05) , & Jenna (6/09)
Loving my amazing dh, James & forever missing Aaron Ambrose (11/07)
But I figure I'll find a way to make money work out if HBAC seems like the best option. And while it's not my ideal environment, it's not that bad either.
My decision will ultimately depend on the supportiveness of the most VBAC-friendly OB / midwife that I can find.
Ak Hippie mama Yamia DSD '03 DS '07 DS2 '09 & DS3 '12