Okay, its not enough that the doctor isn't necessarily on par with my birth preferences when it comes to laboring and pushing positions. I told my husband that I wanted to labor at home as much as possible when the time came and since the Hosp is an hour drive away, he said it is too risky.
He also said, in his domineering voice, that when I go into labor, we are heading to the hospital. He doesn't seem to understand that my concerns are the medical interventions and the fact that I will be restricted to that darn bed for constant monitoring, possibly making me crave pain medication. I'd probably be tensing up in pain and labor would not progress as it should.
When I naturally miscarried at 11 weeks last year, I had real labor contractions for 6 hours. They were coming on top of each other during the last 3 hours and let me tell you this, I could not sit because of the pain. I got up and walked around and that helped me cope with it. I also hopped in the shower briefly and that helped. I was in so much pain, I was breathing through the contractions, but I did it all without pain medication. I started getting a little paranoid and headed to the ER over some heavy bleeding and clots. To my surprise, the contractions stopped and the bleeding let up almost as soon as I arrived. I delivered the placenta in the ER bathroom.
So, in telling you this, I am putting emphasis on the fact that there is no way I am going to want to labor while just sitting there, or rather, laying there! I'll be wanting to run around like a mad woman and possibly hitting the hot shower for however long.
I have been so upset all day. I waited too late in the game to find out that my doctor doesn't support movement during an attempted VBAC. I was ignorantly presumptuous! Despite the fact that I am already 35 weeks pregnant, I am going to try/have been trying to find another doctor.
I was just going to suck it up and stay with this doctor and just labor the way I WANT to, but I have no support system. I thought I had my husband, but now it seems like he has changed his mind because of what the doctor said.
What would be a good way to combat this? When I go into labor, if its not obvious, perhaps I should just keep quiet? Will I be able to hide it from my husband if he is around? What if my water breaks in his presence? I'm seriously so depressed over this and wish it was a non-issue.