today i'm a day past my due date. at my last appointment i was 50 % effaced, no dilation yet..but the good news, OB agreed to let me go 2 weeks past due date. i have braxton hicks here and there, especially at night but haven't lost my mucus plug or anything else...
my DS was born Nov 2008 by c-section after ROM and failure to progress, never got further than 2 cm dilation...this time I was hoping for a VBAC but today is my first day of cold feet. i read a paper this morning (silly me
I've hired a doula and was planning to labor at home as long as i can and as long as my water wouldn't break my OB is ok with me heading to hospital at 5-1-1 (1 min ctx, 5 min apart, for 1 hr). i've been really motivated for my VBAC, but today having my first day of cold feet...could be related to the fact that my toddler has 103 fever and ear infection and i haven't slept great for days now so i'm probably not in the best mental state...I'm fearful of putting my unborn child in danger. What doesn't help is that in my immediate environment here I don't know anyone who wants to or plans a VBAC, but instead all of the mothers I know personally plan a repeat section so I often am left doubting my decision. The hospital I'm delivering at has little less than 50% c-section rate and about 5% VBAC births (ie. 95% go in for ERCS). I've done a lot of reading, contacted ICAN and really enjoyed following the discussions on this website, and have felt very powerful and excited about VBACing, ...until today, I find myself kind of gloomy about the whole thing and worried about what if I fall into the small percentage that ends with UR. i guess these fears had to surface at one point, i really didn't think i was fearful of that...but today, i'm in need of some advise, encouragement and positive feedback from strong VBAC mamas