Oh, I totally identify with feelings of anxiety about the unknown WRT labor and vaginal birth. *I* never went into labor with ds (although I did have 6 days of BH contrax ~10 min apart). I really feel like I'll be going where I've never been before.... Honestly, when I go into labor this time, I'm going to be really happy just for *that*...
I've also tried to get my dh to read the "key chapters" of The VBAC Companion so I'd be able to talk to him about my feelings (and to try to get a sense of his). He tries, though I'm not sure how much he really understands (same with pg... he's a wonderful guy, but men just don't experience this stuff the same way).
Kim, how supportive is your dr of a VBAC? There are 2 "supportive" and 2 "unsupportive" (though 1 of these is leaving before my due date) drs. at my practice. I'm learning that I just have to limit what I say to the unsupportive dr. (and fortunately, I will only have 1 more appt with her before "the end").
Yeah, it is an emotional roller-coaster. (*Pregnancy* for me is a roller-coaster at times, too!
) I'm trying to do what I can to get in the right mental "zone" and stay there. Going and visiting the hospital and talking with a L & D nurse has helped a lot (helps me feel like it's going to be a safe place for me, helps me visualize a positive birth setting). Talking to my doula has helped, too.
I don't think there's only one route to "success" in VBAC... we all have had such different experiences in childbirth and in our Cs. We have different kinds of drs. and hospitals, with different rules.
I'll be thinking of you as your edd draws near. Keep us informed!
Oh yeah, other Kim (OnTheFence), thanks for posting your birth plan! We're talking with our doula next week about birth plans, and then I'm probably going to discuss it with the dr. the following week.
And now for something totally off the topic of VBAC and C/B... I've been feeling unusually tired the last couple of days. Ug. I'm thinking of doubling my iron (I was at 34 the last time they checked... still low, but up from 32 the time before). I think the baby is starting to make big demands for iron and calcium...