Join Date: Dec 2008
Location: Northern Colorado
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If you had a perfectly fine first birth, were you anxious for the second?
DD1 was straightforward and pretty easy. I didn't struggle with pain until pushing, and then I had more problems with the pain I thought I was going to feel than I had with pain I was actually experiencing. Minor hemorrhage, some pitocin and methergin and cord traction to get the placenta out, and we all moved on with our day. Relatively simple.
Pregnant with DD2 and I cannot stop thinking that having another HB is a terrible idea. Like I'm pushing my luck and testing fate. Like this is not a HB baby. I have zero evidence to back this up. Blood work looks great, ultrasound is great. Same midwives, same house.
I don't want to go to the hospital out of fear. I don't want to ignore intuition (if this is intuition and not just me being chicken).
Another complicating factor is location. I live in Fairbanks, Alaska and we're 7 hours away from a NICU. The hospital here is basically set up to stabilize and medivac any problems. That's about all they can do. I mean, they could do a C-sec or whatever if necessary, but if there are real problems they'd just fly me to either Anchorage or Seattle.
On the plus side, if I HB I have a fire department (with ambulance) just down my street. A transfer to the hospital would be about as easy as possible (if it couldn't be done in our cars).
There is an OB in town who seems pretty HB friendly. I'm trying to get a consult now to see if she'll back me up. But I'm not 100% sure I want that. I really wonder if I just want to be in the hospital. DH does not want to be in the hospital unless necessary. There is one other midwife in town who delivers in the hospital, but I've heard mixed reviews. She may be too hands off, and the OB she works with has a very high C/S rate. That may be because he handles the C/S from this midwife, I don't know.
So, tell me, if you've made it through my novella, did you feel a lot of trepidation before birth #2? If you had a HB, did you ever want to try a hospital birth just to see the difference? (Maybe my anxiety is born out of curiosity???) If you had concerns, were they validated or erased at the birth?
Sarah. Married to my Mirus, raising my DD1 (Aug. '09) and my DD2 (March '11) and waiting for my newest (April '14)!