I just found out yesterday that my baby is breech. I'm doing a bunch of things to encourage the baby to turn - pulsatilla, tilt board, Webster technique from a chiropractor. If the baby hasn't turned by Monday, my midwife wants to attempt a version. They've got a really good track record of getting babies to turn, so I should be optimistic (I'm 37w3d, so we've got time yet).
All day yesterday I managed to be optimistic and hopeful about it - yes, a c-section would be about as far from my planned homebirth as possible, but if that turns out to be what needs to happen, then it's for the best. But today all of a sudden I'm having a hard time keeping my spirits up.
Feeling tired and hormonal and down about it all. I don't want to get too upset, because I know my being tense and anxious isn't going to do the baby any good, but I don't seem to be able to stop the tears from sneaking out occasionally.
I've had a remarkably smooth pregnancy, and as I entered into these last few weeks I was still enjoying being pregnant. Although I've started really looking forward to finally meeting this Little Bean I've been carrying around for months. Now I feel like I can't focus on preparing myself for birth and beyond, because I don't have the slightest idea any more what that's going to be like, and for the first time in a long time I'm not joyously pregnant anymore.
I just wish I could cheer up and face this with a sense of optimism and purpose, like I was yesterday, instead of sitting here all weepy.
Any words of support or encouragement? Mostly I think I just need a hug and cuddle - I'm glad DH will be getting home soon.