Hi everyone, I just found this thread and thought I'd post my experience.
Our 4th child was born on January 27th. We were planning our third homebirth (2nd water biirth). My previous births all went very smooth, my last two labors were fast 1-3hours with painless contractions! However, I had a really difficult time nursing and did not continue. Pregnancy #4 was completely different from the start. First, we were surprised to find out that I was pregnant and I was on antidepressants. I went through a period of denial and then started to wean off of celexa. Wow, that was a really tough time--the side effects were terrible plus morning sickness
: Eventually I came to a good place with everything.
At around 36 weeks, mw's found that baby was in a transverse lie. I started seeing a chiropractor. They did the webster technique and baby did go vertex after a few adjustments. Baby remained vertex until my last prenatal which was on my due date 1/26. I went for an ultrasound immediately after the prenatal and it was confirmed that baby was transverse. At that point, I was no longer a home birth candidate. The next day our plan was for me to see the chiro and to take pulsatilla in hopes to turn baby. The OB conferred with the mw's, he offered to do external version at the hospital so long as labor didn't begin. This was supposed to happen on 1/29. The eveninng of 1/26 I felt a pop and small gush of water. I thought labor had begun. MW came over and did a test but it came out negative (wasn't amniotic fluid). She was afraid that labor was going to happen soon and thought we should head to the hospital. During the ride, my water started to trickle and ctx began. OB did an ultrasound and baby did turn but in the wrong direction. She was now complete breech (footling). I had the section an hour later.
I really thought that I was ok with everything that happened but a few days later it all came out. I felt really really sad. I wanted so bad for my daughter to be part of her sibling being born at home. I felt guilty thinking maybe it was something I did to make the baby turn the wrong way. I cried and cried...in my head I knew that the decision we made was the right one but my heart just felt heavy. The mw's said I needed to mourn over not having the birth I envisioned and that everything I was feeling was normal.
Nursing. This time, nursing was a completely different experience and things are going well. I mean...I can do without the nipple pain but I'll save that for another thread. Although, I admit I have conflicted feelings about it. Everyone I know that nurses just LOVES it but I don't feel that way. It's growing on me but I honestly can't say that I love it.
Questions: my belly feels weird. Sort of tingly and itchy...is that normal? When did you feel completely normal again? (physically)
to Aiden 7, Max almost 5, Djuna Skye 2, and Soleil
AP, cosleeping, nonvacc, unschooling,