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Old 10-26-2005, 12:13 AM
 
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I agree with trusting our instincts, except for one thing. When everyone around you is pushing and pushing in one direction and/or employing scare tactics, it's very difficult to separate your intuitive feelings from the external stuff being pushed down your throat.
AMEN! There are scare tactics about everything to be found at MDC-- God help you if you give birth in a hospital, put your kid in a bassinet or crib *ever*, vaccinate them, send them to public school or just can't afford a 100% organic, vegan diet.

Wow, that could easily turn into a huge rant, so I'm gonna stop now.

I am planning to VBAC #3. I even want to catch him by myself, and that's what I'm planning to do. My dr is entirely supportive of the VBAC, doesn't know a thing about the solo birth and never will. It may not happen, because my water tends to break without labor starting and quite frankly I think that after 48 hours, I'm not going to be willing to wait. If that's what happens, if my water breaks and 48 hours I have no signs of impending labor at all, I will likely go to the hospital and have a c-section. They won't want to give me pitocin because I had a section with BooBah, and they probably won't want to wait terribly long (though I will ask for the same doctor who did my section before, because he did a kick-ass job all the way around). I may be able to get some waiting in by agreeing to CFHM, which won't be a problem as far as I'm concerned. And I definately need to get my ass over to the Ceserian Goddess site to print out that birth plan, and work up my own but I can't do that until the weekend (at the ILs house where they have a lovely high speed connection).

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I agree with trusting our instincts, except for one thing. When everyone around you is pushing and pushing in one direction and/or employing scare tactics, it's very difficult to separate your intuitive feelings from the external stuff being pushed down your throat.
I wanted to say on this whole "trust your instincts" thing too, that as I planned my last c-section, I was just doing what seemed best based on my situation, the waiting for full-on labor was based on research I had done, I wansn't "listening to my instincts" b/c they weren't saying anything clear, it was when I suddenly had a strong feeling that my plan was not good, but had no real "research" reason why that I had to trust that gut feeling. The gut feeling won't happen to everyone(didn't happen with my first 2), I think it mainly happens when your plans are wrong, we rarely get that feeling in our gut when all is right with these decisions, yk?

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Yes, I just wanted to say that I totally agree with listening to *your* instincts. When dh and I had to decide what to do about this birth (less than 2 weeks ago) I forced myself to not check the MDC boards, to block out the doc's scare stuff, and to pray and talk with dh and my friends and family about what *we* wanted to do. I think since we did that, I am pretty much at peace (at least for now...of course stuff may come up later) with our decision to schedule this c-section. It ended up being a great birth and a healthy kid and it just felt right at the time. Also, since I know that I totally made the decision, I'm not bitter or angry at anybody this time (as opposed to last time with dd). Makes a huge difference.

So....if there is a next time I will do the same, listen to what my instincts are telling me and what feels like the right thing to do.
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I agree with trusting our instincts, except for one thing. When everyone around you is pushing and pushing in one direction and/or employing scare tactics, it's very difficult to separate your intuitive feelings from the external stuff being pushed down your throat.
I think that goes for anything. Didn't you feel pressure to VBAC? I mean you were reading everything you could about it, coming here, talking to people in various forums about it and had this overall feeling that your cesareans were just this terrible god awful thing. Couldn't you say you fed that? I mean how many times have I read in these very forums the horrors of csections and how the risks are way over exagerrated. For the most part cesareans are safe, but if you go to ICAN or a VBAC site you may think that a cesareans could be equated with cutting a limb off or rape.

Many of us have CHOSEN not to trust our instincts and actually try to do something that we know that our bodies or ourselves or even our babies should not be doing. Example: With my first birth I wanted a natural vaginal birth, I decided to have an ECV even though I felt it was not going to work -- but I did it because I wanted to avoid a csection. It was more important to me to have that vaginal birth and prove something than what was really best for mine and my babies health.

Just wanting to throw that out there....
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That is so true! I don't know WHAT my instincts are telling me. I have prayed about it and haven't seemed to get a clear answer but I know I am probably blocking it. A part of me is really scared to go for a VBAC and just worried about how I will react if it doesn't work out. I have bipolar and I REALLY don't do well when my plans get messed up. I had severe depression and anxiety after Olivia and I really feel it was because of the obsession over planning a VBAC that ended up a c-section that did it. I don't think it was so much the c-section itself as I seem to heal really quickly. Within the first week I was out shopping, it was uncomfortable but not really a big deal. I don't know whether I want a VBAC because "I" want a VBAC or because Mothering and ICAN push it so much. More Mothering..I have a hard time with these boards because you don't know what is fact and what is their own agenda. Like for example I have bipolar as I mentioned and this baby will be getting supplementary formula and bottle feedings at night (every other feeding or something) so I can get rest. I go severely manic (rage) when I am sleep deprived. But with Olivia I would not give her bottles - it will ruin the breastfeeding relationship, it is just wrong and evil - at least that is what you believe reading on here. We need to truly do what is best for our families not what someon else says is best. When I picture a VBAC I picture this wonderful perfect birth with minimal pain and short labour and no tearing. yeah right! How often does that really happen? I had 22 hours of unmedicated labour with Olivia and I wanted to die! I still remember it, it was the most pain in my life! I gave up and headed to the hospital for an epidural and you know what? I would probably want an epidural again. Is it a vaginal birth I want or is the the PERFECT vaginal birth? The chances I would end up with this perfect birth no problems is really not that high. A part of me keeps coming back to really wanting to plan a c-section. I am a real type A personality, I like to plan everything. And with the bipolar, it just helps me feel in control of my life. We don't really have anyone to watch the kids here. My sister will but she has two autistic children and they would have to come with her. She wouldn't be able to stay for hours and hours. And if we ended up with a c-section I'd be at a hospital over an hour from home and DH would have to go home to be with the kids. If we planned a c-section we would have DH's family (parents and teen SIL) come up. They are so awesome with the kids and the kids love them. I trust them completely. They would have the kids outside building snowman, and making cookies, and drinking hot chocolate while reading stories. They would make the kids feel completely at ease. I could go to a spa the day before and have a nice massage (ahhhhhh) and get my nails done. I could take a nice big sleeping pill and have a good nights sleep the night before. I could go in prepared and have my kids prepared, special new toys and colouring books at home and what not. I could deliver in the small town hospital which is 4 minutes from my home. The doctor who delivered Elijah would deliver this one and he is amazing. He is so respectful. Even though Elijah was an emergency because I was soooo sick with pre-e he sat down with me and read over my c-section birth plan and when we in the OR he said "okay everybody she wants it quiet when the baby comes out" and everybody was quiet so Elijah heard our voices first. He ended up having real troubles and was airlifted to Ottawa but I know Dr. Lee would have done everything we preferred had he stayed. They only have private birthing and recovery rooms there and they are really nice so I would have a private room with out having to pay. I could have all my stuff ready in my room and have gifts for the kids "from the baby" and big sister and big brother t-shirts. And I know how I recover from c-sections. Even though with Elijah I hemoraged and ended up wit 3 blood transfusions I still recovered quickly. With both kids I was shopping within a week, took the babes to the chiropractor by 3 days old or so, and within 2-3 weeks I was a bit sore but pretty much back to normal. We were having sex within 4 weeks of the births (pretty much as soon as the bleeding stopped! ). After Olivia I only took advil and tylenol (staggered) and I was fine. I think after writing all this my heart really wants to plan a c-birth. It sure sounds like it huh? I'll have to do a lot of thinking on this. I know this is probably my last child (because of health issues) and I don't want to end up regretting never having a vaginal birth. But DH said maybe its not the vaginal birth I want but the calm and happy birth. I think a c-birth could do that for me. Also I loved what someone said on another board I am on. People talk about the "I am woman, hear me roar!" feeling after a vaginal birth, well "I am Mom, hear me roar," is a lot more important. The birth is just one day and we shouldn't lose our focus on that. Anyhoo now that your eyes are crossing from me writing so much I will sign off for now!

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Heavenly, you & I seem to be going through some of the same "stuff" with VBAC vs. scheduling a c/s. I have still not decided what to do! But it's nice to hear someone else questioning whether VBAC is the best thing for them.
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I think that goes for anything. Didn't you feel pressure to VBAC? I mean you were reading everything you could about it, coming here, talking to people in various forums about it and had this overall feeling that your cesareans were just this terrible god awful thing. Couldn't you say you fed that? I mean how many times have I read in these very forums the horrors of csections and how the risks are way over exagerrated. For the most part cesareans are safe, but if you go to ICAN or a VBAC site you may think that a cesareans could be equated with cutting a limb off or rape.
I've never been raped, but I understand why people here make that equation. I have been sexually abused, and my section felt worse than that. I'd go back to being a 12-year-old girl being groped by the school janitor in a second if it would somehow guarantee that I'd never be in the OR having my belly and uterus cut open. That's not because of pressure here - that's why I came here. I needed to talk to people who understand feeling that way.

The kind of pressure I was talking about in my other post wasn't the "VBAC is best" or even the "c-section is best" kind of thing. With my first section, I knew as soon as I'd regained enough consciousness to know my own name that I never, ever, ever wanted to go through that again. I don't really care if other people agree or disagree (although I could easily do without the "oh, that's the easy way" and "that's cheating" comments). I didn't want to ever have another section. I still don't...I tend to try to forget how Emma and Evan got here - almost like they magically appeared as part of my family.

The pressure I meant is much, much more subtle, and definitely messed with me. When I had Evan, I was living at my mom's (long story involving immigration screw-ups, my mom's astronomical mortgage, a couple of lay-offs, etc.). All through the pregnancy, an old family friend who lives upstairs (has part ownership of the house) kept expressing concern about what I was going to do, and whether I would agree to a section under any circumstances. She doesn't have kids, and doesn't know anything about pregnancy or childbirth, as she freely admits. She was just concerned. My mom, who I love and like dearly, commented that I was obsessed with the c-sections...while still agreeing totally that a VBA2C was the way to go. And, then...when I was about 38 weeks...my mom, my sister, the friend upstairs were all asking me several times a day "no baby yet?". The friend started with "I'm concerned. How long would you let this go...what will you do if you're late?". By the time my original EDD (u/s date was a week earlier) arrived, people had already behaving as though I was in the middle of an obstetrical crisis. On a gut level, I don't think I had any concerns. But, it's very difficult to live with people who are worrying about you constantly and voicing their concerns constantly without feeling as though something has gone horribly wrong. I have no doubt whatsoever that all that nonsense really weakened my resolve when my OB threatened to withdraw. They had me half-convinced that the baby really was in trouble. How can you pin down what your gut is telling you in a situation like that?

err...didn't mean for that to be an essay.

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Well, on this topic. Yes, I do feel judged around here for choosing a repeat csec. I'm so sick of hearing that if I'd gone off into the woods to birth my first baby that I wouldn't be in this situation. They're right, I'd probably be dead.

On a slightly different note, I'm feeling much better about my decision. Because I am the super anal obsessive type, I took in a birth plan to my 12 week prenatal visit today! Anyway, everything that I'd written down about my choices, my OB said ok. The only thing is that I need to contact the hospital about getting a mirror in the OR, but it shouldn't be a problem. I'm getting my choice of anesthesia, my arms won't be strapped down, I can have a pillow, I can see the placenta, dh and babe can stay with me, I'm getting stapled, etc. So, I'm much calmer now that I know that I still get to control a lot about what's going to happen. It somehow seems a little less scary.

Also, I had been leaning towards waiting for labor to start, but then I did some more research and read an article from the NEJM from last year. And, now I'm leaning more towards scheduling. My OB mentioned last visit that she'd like to schedule me at 39 weeks, but today she said if I decided that I do want to schedule I can wait until 40. Again, I feel like I'm getting more control, and I'm able to relax a bit more.

Maybe this all seems silly, but I'm excited by small victories!
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Small victories are a lot to be excited about! (especially in the OR!)

My hospital didn't have a mirror They forgot to order it for me We also forgot about the placenta. My OB thought it was an odd request but she didn't care one way or the other.

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We also forgot about the placenta. My OB thought it was an odd request but she didn't care one way or the other.
My OB looked at me a little funny about that. She said "It's disgusting, but okay."

On the mirror, I'm assuming the hospital has one. They remodeled their birthing area last year. While not truly crunchy, they seem really big on getting your business. Meaning, they seem to want to do whatever they can to make their *guests* happy. So, considering the tour I took. I'm thinking that they probably have them for the vaginal LDR rooms, if people request them. I hope I'm not wrong.
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small victories are good! And I think that as long as anyone is informed, it's your body and your choice. My problem is when I hear that "they" made someone schedule a c-sec and they didn't know they had other options, you know?

The doc was a little weirded out by the placenta request but people keep them all the time after vaginal deliveries, so they just packed it up for us.

I didn't want a mirror, but it was great to see the baby right after delivery as requested and to hold him ASAP. It made all the difference to me between this c-sec and the last. Also to not have fentanyl in my IV before the delivery, so I was totally "there" and knew what was going on.

Question...when did your steri-strips come off? I couldn't remember from last time and mine are starting to be loose but I think it would hurt to peel them off now (2 weeks pp).
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They took out my staples and put on steri strips on day 3 after the surgery. They told me that they should fall off after about a week, and if they didn't I could take them off. I think I waited almost a whole week longer. They were stuck on there really well. Even then, I had to get in the shower and soak them first. But, by then it really didn't hurt to pull them off. Less than a bandaid.

Honestly, I had a really horrible labor. But, the csec itself really went well. I felt like crap for a long time. But, I really wonder how much of that was from the insane labor I had and not a direct result of the csec.

I'm hoping that this one goes better emotionally and physically. At least, this time I'll be mentally prepared for it. I went into my first one under the misguided view that since I had prepared myself so well for the natural, vaginal birth that there was no way I would have a csec. And, then the labor just beat my body up. So, I'm thinking this time, I've had a while to accept the birth in advance. And, even if I go into labor first, I don't plan on laboring for days and pushing for almost 7 hours. So, I think that should help speed up my recovery.
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momma2emerson - Congrats on the small victories! I'm trying to negotiate my own future c-sec (not currently pg, but ttc). My question is who makes the decisions about whether or not you get to have the baby in recovery, and whether or not you can recover in your own room? Is it the hospital or the OB?? I asked my OB and he said that we couldn't. I'd have to recover in a seperate room, and wouldn't have the baby till after I was after recovery. I'm hoping I can wear him down over the term of my future pregnancy, or maybe override his decision in the hospital. Any advice or suggestions would be much appreciated.

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Oh, I don't know. I think those things are usually hospital rules. At least, that's been my experience. Luckily, the hospital ds was born at was super crunchy. And, here they just want our business. The only thing here that bugs me is that for morning rounds the pediatricians prefer that the babes go to the nursery to get checked, but dh just plans on telling them no. As far as recovery though, it's standard here to let the baby stay unless you have general anesthesia or the baby is in trouble. Which in either of those circumstances, I could understand the baby leaving the room. I hope you get some better answers or can go elsewhere to birth. I would be very disappointed with those rules.

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I swear I am going to flip my lid. Of all the arrogant...

This is written by someone else but I figure since it is about me then I have the right to post it. This is from someone on ICAN.

"I LOVE WATCHING M try and educate Shawna about hospital births. I remember being in M's shoes, when I tried to educate her, to draw her out regarding her choice to hospital vbac. I didn't convince M, and she probably won't convince Shawna. (Have to
admit I did chuckle a bit) But M convinced herself. And that is the
big piece here. Really it wasn't me. If you notice, I don't even think I
said a word to Shawna. AT some point, for many women, this goes beyond
opinion. There is a very deep truth, that is deeper than most of us can
express. M went on and had that hospital VBAC even though I tried to
convince her to STAY OPEN. . It wasn't until afterwards that the light went
on for her...glaring at her was her sil's uterine rupture...and she's
thinking out of hospital birth. NOw does that make sense? Wouldn't you
think, if her sil had a uterine rupture she'd be MORE likely to BIRTH AGAIN
in a hosptial?" It goes on (and on) about the ultimate goal being a homebirth (at all costs it seems).

I am ready to b!tch slap someone, I swear. And I am not a violent person. how incredibly arrogant that this person finds it amusing that someone is trying to "educate" me. Because I obviously must be stupid to choose to birth in a hospital or maybe even schedule a c-section. I couldn't possibly have my own reasons and know more about my life that this person. Oh no, of course not! Who made this person the authority on birth? Why do they get to decide who is educated and who isn't? I am so glad she can get a chuckle out of someone trying to "educate" dumb little ol' me. Because of course unless I come to the ultimate conclusion that a homebirth is the only good choice then I am uneducated and unenlightened. No they won't convince me to do what they want. I have done the research and have come to my own conclusions. I am a smart woman, I have a genius level IQ for crying out loud! Why is it assumed that because after doing TONS of research that I didn't come to the same conclusion as them and therefore I must be uneducated? See, this is what I am talking about. This is the attitude that makes me think people like this aren't educated. They are certainly not enlightened. How small your world must be when only one possible way of doing things is seen as the supreme (and only REAL) choice? They can continue to feel sorry for me, that is their perogative. But at the same time I am feeling sorry for them that their is so much hostility in them regarding their births. I find that truly sad. That a home vaginal birth is seen as the ultimate experience that they are obsessed with to the point that they have to believe anyone choosing another choice in uneducated, well that is just sad. If that is what they need to believe to feel safe and right in their world then that's just fine. I don't mind being fodder for discussion, especially when I know my own heart and I know the path I have travelled. Carry on ICAN people...

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They took out my staples and put on steri strips on day 3 after the surgery. They told me that they should fall off after about a week, and if they didn't I could take them off. I think I waited almost a whole week longer. They were stuck on there really well. Even then, I had to get in the shower and soak them first. But, by then it really didn't hurt to pull them off. Less than a bandaid.
First section: Steri-strips were almost impossible to get off. I just tugged at them a little after each bath (they were starting to annoy me), and gradually they came off, one at a time. I think the last one was about three weeks pp!

Second section: I'm not sure, but it seems that they started to come off after about five or six days...last one came off at about 1.5 weeks pp.

Third section: They were a joke. I had to baby them to keep them on at all. I was sitting directly in the hot sun in the hospital and pouring sweat the whole three days, then my incision didn't close properly and became infected. I don't think the strips ever did stick properly, because my skin was so soaked with sweat.

The staples don't bother me at all. But, I'm not that fond of the strips - they itch.

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heavenly~im sorry that you're having so much trouble w/ some of the ladies at ICAN. i've never been to that website, so im pretty much "uneducated" sorry, i just had to! im glad that you aren't that bothered by that lady. she obviously has problems if she thinks her way is the only and right way for every single woman. very egocentric!!

mommy2emerson~im glad you got some things pre-planned. that must feel like a huge weight has been lifted! w/ carson, i got to hold her the minute they were done suturing me. but my arm was strapped down during the section and that i would change if i have to do it again!! i hated that! made me feel claustrophobic if that makes sense..

i've chosen to vbac this little one we're having in june. for me, it seems my best option. i had kya vaginally w/ no problems and carson was sectioned cuz the cord was around her neck twice and tight and didn't let her descend into the birth canal and her kept decelerating. my ob thinks that a vbac is a good option for me and so do i. i'd be very miffed at someone if they judged my reason to birth the way i want to. just like i wouldn't judge someone else. birthing a baby is a very personal thing and i can't imagine someone telling me that my way was wrong!!
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momma2emerson - Thanks for the advice. I'm not too worried yet, since I'm not pg right now. I think I'll wait till after the "hospital tour" and see how that goes. I will be birthing at a different hospital, which I think is more crunchy than my previous one. I'm hoping that if I tell them the circumstances of my last birth, that they may be "nicer" to me and let me have my baby in recovery. I think my OB might just be "quoting" the rules, but hopefully they can be broken or at least bent.

heavenly - I am so sorry everyone is giving you such a hard time! When it comes time for me to birth my second baby I don't think I'll be advertising my decision, just so I won't get slack from anyone. It's hard enough researching and deciding what is best for you, to then have someone judge what you feel is best for you and your family. I'd just try and stay away from the people who are bringing you down.

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Shawna: for you. How truly egocentric of that person. How to birth is such a personal decision.. yet so many others feel they have the right to push their ideas/ideals on others. I am so sorry. I would be very angry too.
I truly wish that all women had the right to choose how to birth (sadly many don't).. I don't think that everyone should birth the same way.. does that make sense?
I agree with Sandy, surround yourself with support and don't listen to others who are not willing to respect your choices. No one should judge someone else for the choices that they make.. they are not in the other person's shoes..

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Well I am about 90% at the decision to schedule a c-birth (changing the terminology in my brain). I am so thankful to have this thread because it is very difficult to find any support in this issue. There are many issues which I have written about (extensively ) on here. I just think it will be best for everyone involved. I am just not willing to risk the uterine rupture at a hospital without 24/7 emergency services. 1% sounds so small but to me it sounds huge. Like I always say if someone gave me a gun with 100 chambers and only put 1 bullet in would I hold the gun to Olivia's head or Elijah's head knowing there was a 1 in 100 chance I could kill them? Not on your life. I just can't take the risk. I am not cutting up anyone who feels differently, this is just how I feel. Ugh gotta run, I'll finish this message in a minute (potty accident....no, not me!! )

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Okay I am back. Anyways I am pretty sure I am going through with this. I am working on my c-birth plan right now (borrowing a lot of Kim's stuff! Thanks Kim!) and it just feels right. I feel very peaceful and calm preparing this birth plan. I am going to call my family doctor on Monday to get a referral to the OB I want to deliver the baby. He delivered Elijah and is really great. I will be delivering at the community hospital 9 km from my home. It has really nice, big private L&D rooms (and you recover there if you have a c-birth as well) and no nursery so no fights about that. I feel really happy about the idea of birthing somewhere I am comfortable, plus my mom and dad and Sister and BIL will be able to visit. We're going to schedule before labour. I know that is a controversial decision but I really don't want to go through labour and I want to be able to schedule Michael's parents being up at our house (they live 5 hours away). So we will be getting them to come up and watch the kids during all this and stay until I get home so Michael can be with me as much as possible. The kids love them and I trust them completely so that will be a load off my mind. I plan to only stay in 2 days because that is what I did with Olivia and it was just fine. This is so funny, after agonizing over this decision I am actually finally getting excited over this baby's arrival. I think my heart has felt all along that a VBA2C was not the right choice. Every time I went to the midwives office I just felt like I wasn't really there if you know what I mean. It all just felt surreal and I wasn't into it at all. Regarding the midwives I think it would be hard on me to go there (plus the hour drive) even though I am happy with my decision so would it be too horribly insensitive to contact them by phone to terminate my care with them? I will have to get them to transfer all my prenatal care records to the OB.

In regards to scheduling when is the best time to do that? I went into labour with Olivia at 39 weeks 4 days so I don't want to risk going into labour. A Friday would be best because it would be easiest with Michael's family coming up and Friday February 10 would be exactly 39 weeks (and I am 100% positive of my dates). Do you think that would be okay (provided the doctor can do it on that day? I have to admit the idea of being done sooner is a nice one! Not that that is a deciding factor but we have to look for positive whereever they are right? I have to run now but I'm sure I will have lots more questions as time goes on.

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Shawna, congrats on having made your decision. It sounds like it's the best one for you.

If I choose to schedule a c/s, my OB wants to do it at 39 weeks. It sounded like that is pretty standard. They can also get it on the schedule for that date like 10 weeks ahead of time, so then you'd be able to get all your other plans set.
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Heavenly - I'm so glad that you have come to a peaceful decision. THAT is the hardest part. Now you can relax, enjoy and only focus on the 1 birthing option you have chosen. I feel the same way as you as far as the risk of rupture goes. The risk is way to great for me. I was never able to come home from the hospital with my last baby, and there is NO way that I'm leaving another hospital without one!! As far as scheduling goes.....my OB said that he would schedule me at 39 weeks. Now, that being said I did make it past 40 weeks with my prior pregnancy without EVER going into labor and walking around the month before at 4cm and 80% effaced! I'm sure that whenever your OB decides to schedule you, IF you do go into labor before then, you won't have to labor too long before you get your c-birth. I'll schedule before labor also. I obviously don't have day care issues, but my sister lives in CA and wasn't able to make it in time to see Benjamin alive, and I would really like her to be there the day my next baby is born. As far as the MW's go...I'd just call and cancel. I don't know if that is appropriate or not, but I'd do it. Good luck with all your decisions, and come here for questions anytime!

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Hi everyone ~ this is my first time here!

I had my first 3 kids vaginally, then my next 3 kids via c-section. I'm almost 21 weeks pg and this baby (my last) will be c-section #3.

My first c-section was necessary as I had twins who were both in a footling breech position. The surgery went fine (they were both out within one minute), but my recovery was a bit rough. The doctor stretched the outer-right edge of my incision, which resulted in a tearing/ripping/burning pain every time I stood up. The only way to alleviate the pain was to apply pressure against the edge of the incision. This was difficult to achieve when I was trying to hold 2 babies. I finally solved the problem by using an Ace bandage wrapped around my lower abdomen. The other complication I had from my first c-section was that I had zero urge to urinate. Ever. At my 6-week postpartum check-up, I asked my ob about it and she said that sometimes the bladder got damaged during the surgery (oh joy) and only time would tell if the nerve damage was permanent. In the meantime, she told me to make sure I emptied my bladder every 3 hours so it wouldn't get distended and lead to urinary incontinence down the road. Thankfully, around 6 months post-section, the sensation to urinate returned and I had no further concerns.

I had my second c-section 26.5 months after my first. My ob (same one who'd delivered my twins) had told me all along during my pregnancy that I could vbac, no problem. After all, the only reason I'd had a section the last time was due to positioning issues with twins. But then, 2 days before my son was born, my ob changed her mind and told me she wasn't comfortable letting me vbac due to my son's size (he was 9lb,12oz). I did not want a second c-section, but didn't feel I had any choice. I wasn't prepared to homebirth ~ had no supplies, no midwife, no herbs to address the issue of postpartum hemorrhage (I'd had severe bleeding with 2 of my vaginal births that required D&C's and blood transfusions), etc. I suppose I could have stayed at home, labored there and come to the hospital when I was ready to push, but honestly, it never even occurred to me at the time. I wasn't thrilled about having another section, but I acquiesed and had it done.

I had a scare with the anesthesia during my second c-section. You know how the spinal meds can make your blood pressure drop (which is what makes you feel nauseated/dizzy) and then the anesthesiologist gives you something to bring your pressure back up? Well, whatever was put in my IV caused my blood pressure to skyrocket and I had the *worst* pain in my head because of it! I sincerely thought I was going to have a stroke from a burst blood vessel. The pressure/pain was the worst thing I've experienced. The anesthesiologist was working at trying to get my pressure down and told the ob to "go ahead; get him out!" So I totally missed my son being born because I couldn't focus on anything other than the pain in my head. By the time I was sewn up, however, the new meds the anesthesiologist had given me had kicked in and my head felt completely fine again. It was a *very* scary experience, however, and one I'm a bit worried about being repeated this time around. I'll be giving the anesthesiologist the report so he knows what *not* to give me!

I am almost 21 weeks pregnant with baby #7 and had originally planned to have a homebirth vba2c. I'd located a midwife, met her, and everything was a 'go' and looked great. I had been seeing an ob prior to finding the midwife (it took me until I was almost 17 weeks to find a midwife who was comfortable taking me on as a client) and I found out at 18 weeks that there is a maternal-fetal blood incompatibility issue between the baby and me. The baby has antigen-c in its red blood cells and I have antibody-c in my blood, which means my immune system recognizes the antigen-c in the baby's blood as a foreign protein and sends antibodies to destroy the antigen-c, which, in turn, destroys the baby's red blood cells. This causes anemia and excess bilirubin (a by-product of broken-down red blood cells), which can result in brain damage, in-utero jaundice, heart failure and death to the baby. The only treatment is to monitor the baby's level of anemia through ultrasounds at the perinatologist's office and if/when it reaches a severe level, to administer in-utero blood transfusions (which have their own set of risks, including death) every 2-3 weeks until the baby reaches 32-35 weeks, at which point the baby is delivered and treated in NICU.

This baby also has a 2-vessel umbilical cord, which can be indicative of a chromosome problem (which the peri doesn't think the baby has, as there are no markers for a problem on the u/s) or it can be no big deal except that it often leads to IUGR and an earlier birth than expected.

SO! Once I learned about the challenges facing the baby, I realized a homebirth was impossible. The peri told me that a c-section was the safest method of delivery for this baby. It will need blood transfusions at birth to get rid of the bilirubin and antibody-c in its blood (it's called an exchange transfusion ~ the doctor removes a small amount of the baby's blood and replaces it with with an equal amount of donor blood, monitors the baby for signs of shock and when everything is okay, the neonatologist then repeats the procedure, doing this over and over until the baby's blood supply has been replaced). The baby will also need high-intensity bili lights to breakdown the bilirubin in its skin. And that's a "best case scenario"! There's a chance the baby could die in-utero or be stillborn, or that it will be born very prematurely and need to spend time in NICU. There is no midwife who could address my baby's needs at birth and it would be asinine for me to even consider an UC, so........c-section #3 it's going to be!

I am hoping for a good experience with this delivery. I was *really* disappointed for a few days about not getting to homebirth and avoid another c-section, but I'm over that now. My primary concern is the baby, and I will do whatever is necessary to get a good outcome for him/her. And since a c-section is the safest route for him/her to be delivered, that's what I'll do, kwim?

I do have some concerns about how much scar tissue the doctor will have to contend with from my prior sections, and I'm not looking forward to the pain and limited mobility (difficulty getting up, especially out of bed) that a c-section causes, but I know it'll be all right. I think having a high-risk pregnancy diminishes the worrying about the delivery, itself (for me, anyhow). I just want a baby who makes it and is okay when all is said & done.

I'm so happy to have found this thread. It will be nice to be able to talk to others who have had and/or are having c-sections and aren't going to flip me sh*t about how I'm "choosing" to have a repeat section versus trying to birth this baby vaginally. I would if I could, but I can't, so I'd like to just move past those who want to try to "convince" me otherwise and focus, instead, on how to make the birth of my 7th child as good/pleasant as possible.
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Kate - Welcome! Wow, you've been thru a lot! I am so sorry to hear about all the complications with your current pregnancy. I pray that you won't have any more unnecessary complications and that both you and your baby will be healthy when everything is all said and done. Please keep us updated as your pregnancy progresses.

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hi Kate and welcome! Sorry you're dealing with so much, plus 6 other kids, wow!

I don't know about alternatives for the bp drug, but I do know that being "present" for my 2nd birth by c-section made all the difference. I asked them to not give me anything before the baby came out (such as fentanyl, which I had for my 1st) or afterwards, and it was great to actually feel the baby be born and to see and hold him asap. We had an appointment with the surgeon the day before the c-section to discuss what we wanted, and it was good to be able to talk to him before I was all prepped and stuff about what was possible and what wasn't. I'm sure it depends on the doc but there's a lot they can do that people don't know to request...a mirror, seeing the baby right away, holding him/her in the OR, etc.

Anyway I hope this is helpful...sounds like you have lots of things to deal with so I hope your birth is a good experience.
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Hello,
I had my c-section in feb 05 as my baby was "stuck". She was OP and acynclitic. I feel ilke I did everything to avoid it, except going out into the woods alone and not returning until she was out - I live in New York City - so I'm not even sure where the nearest woods are.... Seriously, I still have mixed emotions from it, sometimes I feel great and even empowered that i did so well and other times like a failure. I find it difficult to deal with other peoples comments like "you couldn't push this baby out, what makes you think you could push another baby out?" This was during a VBAC conversation with another L&D RN. Some L&D RN's have no clue about birth....
I wrote a poem after my baby was born that I'd like to share with you guys. So here goes...don't laugh...

My baby was born on a bright winter morning in New York;
I didn't see the sun that day.
She was lifted up from my body;
there had been "no descent".
She was lifted high up into the light
But I didn't see the sun that day.
My wonderful red squirming daughter
Lay in my arms
But I didn't see the sun.

Just wanted to share.
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ruby slippers - Thanks for sharing your beautiful poem. (don't worry, I didn't laugh.)

Kim - I was just curious if you wanted to start the November thread? (since you are the "official" thread keeper)

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ruby slippers: Why on earth would we laugh? Thanks for sharing the poem. I keep thinking I should write one about my sections and miscarriages, but I don't seem to be able to put pen to paper about it...

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I am amazed I ended up feeling great about our son's cesaerean birth, but I totally do. For me the reason for trying for homebirth was mainly that I am totally terrified of being in a hospital at all, so when a homebirth midwife fired me as a patient at 11w because of 1 HBP reading (induced by her insistence on using a too-small cuff) and said I would HAVE to have this baby in a hospital & probably go on BP meds for the rest of my life, I FLIPPED. Like realizing that had I known I might birth in a hospital I never would have conceived flipped.

Well, that was going to get me nowhere. Eventually I calmed down, found a better midwife who used the right size BP cuff, & had an uneventful pregnancy. But I realized I had better get myself together in case I did somehow end up in the hospital. I made friends w/several NP midwives, went to a homeopath to find my global remedy, saw a hypnotherapist, & went back to my regular therapist for several sessions. I made sure I had massages & adjustments, & did all the exercises in "Birthing from Within." I read every word on plus-sizepregnancy.com. I started maternity leave a few weeks early. I had a consult w/the birth-friendly OB lady who consults w/the homebirth midwives in our area, & toured that hospital w/nurses who teased me kindly about my hospital fears and pretended to beg me to consider birthing with them. And at 39w3d, dilated 2cm effaced 50%, I had a *really* high BP spike. With terror in my heart we had to go to the hospital for an induction -- where we were treated like royalty, apparently how they try to treat all the mothers who planned homebirth.

Long story longer, labor did go well & fast (got to use a tub in the birthsuite), but a pushing-stage emergency necessitated surgery. Great nursing support, the midwife stayed in surg w/me while husband accompanied son to nursery, great support for our decisions to keep foreskin, delay HebB vax, bring procedures to our room rather than remove babe. I grew a lot during this experience & wish that every woman who is unexpectedly faced w/a surgical birth could receive this level of care, in every sense. I truly feel my son was *born*, and that his birth was attended w/love.

(Oh, the best thing was having my best friend tape the post-birth nursery stuff while I was in recovery, so I missed nothing. She also "interviewed" our families in the waiting room during surg. so we can watch that tape & feel their love & concern while we went through what truly was a big scary thing for us all.)
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