Back from the ultrasound...I can finally get off the emotional roller coaster.
I am *not* pregnant. Why I got 4 positive pregnancy tests I do not understand.
All I can think is that maybe I did ovulate and maybe a pregnancy did begin and
end suddenly--you know, what they call a chemical pregnancy.
As for the symptoms, most of them can be explained by my cycle trying to come
back. Maybe even the weight gain of 5 lbs. And maybe pants not fitting.
Definitely could explain the sensitive breasts, moodiness, etc. But chicken
cravings? I don't know...Maybe that was related to Loralei still nursing at
night and me needing more protein. The flutters I was feeling came after I got
the positive pregnancy tests so I'm thinking my mind was playing tricks on me.
Weird how your mind can do that.
A word of caution, I used ACCU-CLEAR tests with both David and Loralei and got
faint lines both times. Obviously both times I was really pregnant. Used the
same kind this time around and it cost me almost $400 in bills seeing the
midwife and getting the ultrasound. I'd stay away from this brand that's sold
at Target and Walgreens. Unless of course I really had some HCG in my system
due to the early stages of pregnant..then the tests weren't faulty.
I purposely kept the news to myself for more than a week and only announced it
after the last set of + tests. I wanted to be sure. Who knew I would go
through all this to find out for sure. Never thought I'd be looking forward to
my period coming back but now I'm ready for it because then I'll have a better
idea of what's going on with my body. It probably is coming since I've been
having these pregnancy-like symptoms.
The good thing that came out of this is that we are not opposed to having more
bio children, but we're glad Loralei can keep being the baby of the family for
now. We definitely want to adopt an older child next as originally planned and
then maybe we can have another bio child later on. I'm exciting about what I
was working on before all this started--homeschooling my little ones, trying to
lose 40 pounds, getting moved and settled in a new city, writing for Bella
Online, and maybe even getting to go away with DH without the kids for a
weekend after Loralei has weaned.
So that's the update. Thanks to everyone for your support and the caring
responses and sorry for taking you on the roller coaster with me!