*Huge hugs to you* mama, and Happy belated birthday to Austin. I get on here so little nowadays, with work being so far away, so I apologize for the lateness of this message.
What you said reminded me of visiting my brother Finn's grave (he died in 1986 from a placental abruption, same as Josie though apparently unrelated in terms of genetic stuff) and looking at his little white marble headstone. They made it out of a piece of scrap white marble they had in the shop - only big enough for a baby's headstone. My mother would clean it up and repaint the engraved lettering whenever it needed doing. Sometimes she'd cry quietly, sometimes she wouldn't. It really depended on the day. There was a railway line that ran behind the graveyard, down an embankment, and my brother and I would lean over the fence to watch the engines go past, and play in the old flowers removed in big piles from other people's new graves (they were in a big compost heap, put there by the cemetary gardeners I think). We'd explore the other, old graves, and the big tombs that people had made hundreds of years ago.
When we go back to England this summer, hopefully I can go visit him - he's in St Albans, which is such a pretty place.
Anyhow, you are a strong lady and you know, coming from the point of view of someone six months into the journey like myself, without other biological children, you give me hope, because you were then able to go on and have more children after losing Austin. Honestly at this stage, I would love to hold a living baby of my own...it's like a craving. You show me it can be done.
*HUGE hugs* again XXXXX
Mama to Josie , lost 10/10/08 at 37.4 weeks .and my rainbow baby, Isobella Mai ...born 1/12/2010!Pregnant with Prairie Baby, AKA #3. Due October 17th, 2015.
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