Last night I had a weird feeling. I never made the connection before because my periods are irregular half the time and in the last 12 years I've never tracked them, but now I think it was the same slight feeling in my uterus (not feeling like cramps at all, just an odd sensation) that I get the night before my period starts.. it gave me a weird feeling emotionally but I set it aside and fell asleep. This morning I had mild cramping (often times just feeling sore, occasionally obvious mild cramps) when I woke up. When I used the bathroom there was the slightest streak of pink. The cramping kept on the same way. Half an hour ago or so I started bleeding like how my period starts for the first 12-24 hrs (moderate).
I think my baby is gone. It all makes sense. Why I got a negative when I tested for EXDP to see last week. I chalked it up to not being morning pee...but I was probably at LEAST 5 weeks LMP (but not sure because I don't keep record) so why wouldn't it show? I ignored it.
I texted EXDP this morning about the slight spotting and cramping. I don't know how concerned he was as it was texting and since we broke up he rarely shows me his concerns (right after he left me, before I found out we were pg, I stopped talking to everyone for 2 days...he thought I killed myself, texted my sister asking her to check up on me and she never replied to him...he didn't come over until the next day when a friend of mine texted him asking if he had heard from me...THEN he called, texted, and came over when I didn't answer). I don't know why I went into that story, I think I'm trying to distract myself from this. Anyways, I texted him right after I noticed the bleeding to tell him and he hasn't responded. He's at work but still I don't even know if he read it.
I'm holding back a breakdown like I did last time, but I don't know if it'll work this time...