I hate the thought of starting this thread...but since there have SO many of us in the last couple of weeks going through this terrible time, I thought we could glean some comfort, wisdom, and love off each other.
So, I'm inviting Bunches, LisaG, Tara, Laura, Jesse, Kama, and Gonnabeamom here to commiserate, cry, rant, and heal. (And anyone else I might have missed -- though I sure hope they're aren't any more!)
I really believe that it's through helping each other that we will eventually heal -- and come out stronger and better than ever (though that is very difficult to see now.)
It's been 12 days since my miscarriage. I'm having good days and bad days. Thankfully I've found a lot of support with my family, friends, yoga people, and especially the women here.
This is my 2nd m/c in 6 months and I must admit I'm terribly gun-shy at this point. As I've said on other posts, I was so confident I would have this baby. Now I don't know how I"ll go into another pregnancy with that confidence. So I"m just taking some time to see where the lessons of this m/c take me. ..
Today I buried "my baby" along with the November Angel Pin that signified him/her and planted a columbine plant in rememberance. I feel like I've returned the gift my baby gave me.
I highly recommend a book my midwife lent me called "Ended Beginnings." It really validated some of the crazy emotions I was having. I was actually feeling angry at my baby for a day or two. (I believe that the soul of my baby is the same one with both m/c's and the same soul of the baby I'll actually have one day.) And I internally yelled at my baby "Why can't you commit! Is this what you're going to be like in real life?!" Of course, I felt horrible and guilty -- but then I learned it's normal. And you wouldn't be angry if you didn't love.
Anyway, I'm babbling. I hope some of you other women come over and share where you are at right now. I'm sure many of us are feeling the exact same way.
Love to all you wonderful ladies. We WILL see our babies again, I just know it....
So, I'm inviting Bunches, LisaG, Tara, Laura, Jesse, Kama, and Gonnabeamom here to commiserate, cry, rant, and heal. (And anyone else I might have missed -- though I sure hope they're aren't any more!)
I really believe that it's through helping each other that we will eventually heal -- and come out stronger and better than ever (though that is very difficult to see now.)
It's been 12 days since my miscarriage. I'm having good days and bad days. Thankfully I've found a lot of support with my family, friends, yoga people, and especially the women here.
This is my 2nd m/c in 6 months and I must admit I'm terribly gun-shy at this point. As I've said on other posts, I was so confident I would have this baby. Now I don't know how I"ll go into another pregnancy with that confidence. So I"m just taking some time to see where the lessons of this m/c take me. ..
Today I buried "my baby" along with the November Angel Pin that signified him/her and planted a columbine plant in rememberance. I feel like I've returned the gift my baby gave me.
I highly recommend a book my midwife lent me called "Ended Beginnings." It really validated some of the crazy emotions I was having. I was actually feeling angry at my baby for a day or two. (I believe that the soul of my baby is the same one with both m/c's and the same soul of the baby I'll actually have one day.) And I internally yelled at my baby "Why can't you commit! Is this what you're going to be like in real life?!" Of course, I felt horrible and guilty -- but then I learned it's normal. And you wouldn't be angry if you didn't love.
Anyway, I'm babbling. I hope some of you other women come over and share where you are at right now. I'm sure many of us are feeling the exact same way.
Love to all you wonderful ladies. We WILL see our babies again, I just know it....