I'm so truly very sorry that your little boy, Ethan James, passed away all too soon. Your grief and sadness are incredibly valid. I can't begin to imagine how much you miss your little baby.
I'm so sorry that you are being treated this way, your partner and family have no right to say those things. You DID NOT cause this.
You carried Ethan from the moment he was conceived, so you know how profound the bond between mother and child is.
Please feel free to share here what you are feeling - this is a safe place and you will be supported by the members of this community.
You have my deepest sympathies.
41 y/o married Mama, 4 y/o DS1, Angel Baby lost in Sep 2013, Angel Baby lost March 2014, 3 months old DS2.