I'm really stuck here.
I'm actually not a mama of 5 yet, we just found out we're expecting.
My story is complicated, but I was a single mama of 2 once before I decided to be with my current partner. 2 kids and one bump later and I'm miserable. But is has been a long time of miserable-ness. I had the whole house packed up last December and then decided to stay after some family intervention, but the urge to leave is back again. I really don't know what to do, I am so miserable with him that I just wish I could disappear. But with 4 + 1 on the way, how can I do it?
It's a hostile environment right now with us barely talking, him lying to me, and he's drinking/doing drugs. (that may not seem too bad, but he's a recovering addict who has started again)
Anyways, any advice is appreciated.... thanks.
Andi - roller derby, slave to the hoop, birth junkie, lover of love, single mama of 4