I'm feeling... overwhelmed. Last year I turned 30, had an anniversary. and got divorced. It did good. The difference is now there is no "excitement" of the divorce or the humor that we were technically married 8 years (which i thought was hilarious cause he wants to call it 7 but it was really 8! )
Sounds like a poignant time for you. Mixed emotions on a grand scale. Sometimes you just have to open your heart to the painful and the bittersweet and wait till that passes. I suppose you know that ...
The boys were with him this morning at church and they got in the car saying "Daddy said we were wrong and your birthday is March 3!" I'm thinking "should I be hurt he forgot so fast??" then I changed it to "At least now we are divorced and he forgets and not married and he forgets. It hurts less now than it did before."
this is an intense week, i hope you have the time to be gentle with yourself and just feel the things you need to feel. grief and joy and relief and regret and a million other emotions are wrapped up in these occasions, and just feeling them is good for you.
This weekend is one without kids. So, I took friday off. I'm going to the gym, using the sauna, getting a haircut, meeting up with my kindergartner after lunch for some hugs, and then getting a new tattoo.