Hey, all. It's been a while since posting to this site, but after many years, I still find myself back here, hoping for ... empathy? support? validation?
I have been single for a very long time. Recently (well, okay, I guess it's been, like 2 years... but that's a whole other complicated story) I started "dating" a man, and things are touch and go with us, seemingly on his terms. The problem is, I want to be with him. After 2 years, he's all I want to be with. But he is more of the loner type. Prefers space. Likes to check out for days/weeks at a time. He always comes back. But even then, is he really here?
I'm just so lonely. I want to come home to a partner, I want to share my days with a man. I want to know that at the end of the day, I can rest my head on his shoulder, and he can wrap his arms around me, and we can have a spiritual exchange.
As I type this, the answer is clear to me that I just need to move on. But I can't. He has this grip on me that I just can't shake.
We discuss his need of space. I've let him know of my need for a partner. Neither seem to want to part ways, but it seems obvious that neither can provide the other with what they really want/ need.
I really don't know the point of this post.
Do you all feel lonely as single parents? How do you deal? Friends are great, but when I get home I feel lost in my own head with thoughts that aren't healthy.
Advice? Stories to share? Hugs for me?? lol. I guess I'll take whatever you can give me!!
With love and warmth,