I've met someone I'm really excited about and it's kind of scary. LOL I wasn't and am not looking for a boyfriend because I have soooooo much on my plate right now - work, school, kids, ya know. But we totally click. He is recently divorced (but separated for a year and a half), has 2 kids, one with autism. And she is just a sweetie, totally reminds me of me when I was little.
He sings and plays in a local band, has a good job, and builds wood surfboards on the side. I'll call him Surfer. We have a whole bunch of friends in common, so I know he's legit. And we both have Asperger's.
And OMG is he attractive!!!!
A couple weeks ago I spent 5 hours at his apartment just talking and listening to music. And last night we spent another 4 1/2 hours the same, talking, listening to music, watching YouTube videos. We have never touched each other at all, or talked about relationships. But last night as we were talking I suddenly felt like it would feel so good if he held me. And later on, we were sitting facing each other and there was this energy between us and it was so intense I had to back down. What the heck was that??? It was like a physical lake or cloud of energy. It wasn't sexual attraction, it was outside of both of us. And I'm not one to think about or 'believe' in auras and stuff like that.
No moves have been made romantically, but I feel all weird like, I know he's the One.
I've been through a LOT in the past couple of years, and I have become sooooo strong through my battles, that for a long time I have felt like no one is good enough for me. I am POWERful now. I've had a lot of guys hit on me and I'm just like, "Yeah right." LOL
I've spent a long time thinking about what I'm looking for in a relationship, and have come to the following conclusion: Someday I will find myself as one half of an unstoppable combination, and then I will know that I found my partner.
Well, I think I found him, but it's like too intense to handle. *Whew, keep breathing, self....