First some history:
1. Have 2 yr old dd
2. SO just moved home permanently after working in Louisiana 4 weeks on/2 weeks off for a year.
3. We used to live in Seattle, but moved to ATL b/c my dad has cancer and wanted to be closer w/dd
4. SO and I have been having lots of troubles this past year (money, jobs, childrearing, etc.)
Now the issue, I guess.
I'm pretty much done. When SO came home, he had a vision of a 50's style home, and I was thinking, a little companionship and some help (I work full-time). I am taking care of 3 people now, instead of just myself and the babe. He loves his daughter tremendously, and tells me he loves me tremendously and that being apart isn't an option, so he'll do whatever he needs to do, but...
*I'm sick of always having to ask and feeling like I'm being taken for granted
*SO is a debt magnet and has recently cost us lots of cash (plus, stupid things, like his 3-months new to us car needs a transmission)
*I think I might be better off alone, only taking care of myself and dd
I guess the reason why I hesitate is dd; she deserves to have two parents (as said before, SO absolutely loves her and has said that he really likes being home, even as crappy as it has been), and I don't want to be selfish. HOWEVER, I also don't want to be unhappy (and yes, I know I deserve to be - my motivation to stay has to do with dd only).
Does anyone have any creative suggestions to start to fix the issues with SO and I OR, ideas about how to work an amicable separation? Counseling is not an option; I have checked out low-income and state/county supported and it's awful. I would appreciate suggestions!
Never let your schooling interfere with your education. ~Mark Twain~