Hey girlspn - I like your co-sleeping idea, I will probably do that myself. I understand all the stresses you have been through this year and totally agree with you about keeping your daughter close. We didn't grow up with the 'family bed' per se, but really, until we were much older (pushing 12) we all still slept with my parents when we needed/wanted to. I don't think there is anything strange about it.
As for dating, I have been trying to stay active (kickball this summer, going out to meetups and cultural events) but really I find the easiest and most productive ways of meeting guys is through online dating. I don't spend a lot of time and I am quite picky about who I will even email, but even relationships that haven't worked, or even turned into dating, have all been very nice guys, so I really can't say anything bad. At this point, yes, I am trying to get pregnant (and have!) but I really don't know how long it will be, if ever, that I get to have my own kiddo. So I feel like I just have to keep living life in the meantime. Even the few months of dating the last guy was really fun, sorry it didn't work out with him (but he was becoming an ass, so its quite alright), but it helped me be not so over focused on TTC.
The second guy I have been emailing I finally talked to on the phone last night. He is definitely higher energy and more talkative than me (and I can talk A LOT.. i mean, look at all this writing!!) and I am more of a mellow person at home, so we will have to see. But he has a little girl that he totally loves, and I think he will be very receptive to me having a kiddo of my own (although I haven't been as direct with him as the first one about it). I put in my profile that I am ready for a family, I am open to adopting, fostering or having my own and taking action on those right now. So, they know!
I know my energy level will change once I am pregnant, and again once I have a kiddo, so I am using the available time to possibly meet someone worthwhile. Once my kiddo arrives, my priorities will change. I would be willing to include someone who has made a positive impact on my life, but not bother if the right person isn't there.
Still OPK testing. So far negatives. Was really hoping I would get one tonight, but I guess I knew it could be a couple days later. I have an event at work Thursday night that I was looking forward to going to. That means my opk can go positive tonight, tomorrow morning or the following morning. But if it hits tomorrow afternoon or evening, I can't go to the event
I of course won't miss my ovulation for anything though. This is where our way is just so much more difficult. Outside of us here, I don't think many people understand the hoops that we jump through.