Yay! Yay! Yay! To all you positive, powerful mothers who's quotes I just read. I left my husband six months ago (on our first anniversary , with a 3 1/2 mos. old son). I come from a strong and loving Christian family, and made a bad choice in marrying a person who likes his beer more than his family. But I digress....
I went through utter and complete hell for the first 3-4 mos. after leaving. My husband also threatened me with taking my son, taking me to court, blah blah blah. And I believed him and was very scared and nervous about the future. But then I took control of my "what if" frightfulness (although it's been my lifelong friend!) and started learning about what my rights are legally. More than that, I started having faith about my moral rights to my son. I am his mother and I love him with everything I am. I don't have to be scared.
I am over 30, college educated, and freelancing right now...pretty broke but very blessed with a roof and family and friends who love us both. When I get scared, my faith becomes stronger. Being a mother to my son has given me more courage, strength, and stamina than anything I've done in my life. When faced with fear or tough decisions, I decide based on what will my son be proud of me for?
After walking through the fires of hell the past few months (i won't lie!)....I can honestly say I am the happiest I have ever been.
By the way, go to hipmama.com and read "Exploding the Daddy Myth". Don't fight the power....be the power!