I'm hardly able to cope as it is. I am depressed and my house is a pigsty, i lose my patience w/ the kids regularly . To add to that dh is also depressed and we tend to pull each other down.
I am really afraid that i won't be able to cope if i have to work full time (in a job that zaps my energy) I wasn't happy before when i worked more and on the days i wk i am left with *no* energy for dd & ds...ex/ i read the bedtime story really fast and just want to hurry so i can go downstairs and do something calm that nurtures me (selfish me).
We are putting an addition on our house , meant to maximize our space so dh is able to have a space for his stuff and his work (he is very disorganized and works at home) so we have a home equity loan and all of these plans. I feel trapped by those as well as kind of excited about the changes we are making, just frustrated...i feel like things have gone too far to go back. I feel only contempt for dh.
It breaks my heart to think of separating, but right now it feels like the only inevitable option. Also, how does one cope when still living together waiting to end the relationship?? Things blow up so easily, i feel like i have lost all of my grace, i hate how i can get when i'm with dh, also i'm so bored with the same old things over and over....
So, you all might be seeing alot more of me on the single parenting boards
Blessings to you all, Kelly