I think I've decided that I need to file for divorce. My husband has anger issues and is extremely emotionally and verbally abusive to me. I've come to the point after only a year or marriage that I feel like I need to get away from him or risk losing myself and damaging my children. I feel bad for my husband because without me he will literally have nothing, but I need to think about my sanity.
I am 26 weeks pregnant right now. The thought of another pregnancy and birth alone really scares me. I was single when I had my son and I still have raw emotions over some aspects of my pregnancy with him. I envied married couples who were excited to have a baby, I wanted that so badly. Now I should be able to have that, but I won't and it hurts really badly. I feel sad for my baby, my son who has grown close to my husband and for myself for having to "start over".
I just want to be happy and I don't think that it is possible for me to be happy with him. He is too volatile and he has no desire to change. I literally have nothing left to give.
I think I'll wait till after Christmas to file, but I don't know what I need to do. Our bank accounts are seperate, so that isn't an issue. The CS that I recieve for my son is enough to cover all living expenses and allow me to be a SAHM or go to school. Can I file for divorce before the baby is born and request that he get supervised visitation only based on the emotional abuse? Will child support be ordered to start when she is born?
My son's last name is my maiden name-father's last name. Would it make sense to have my future daughter's name be my maiden name- husband's last name so that after the divorce I can go back to my maiden name and all 3 of us will have the same (kind of) last name?
I feel so lost.